What a light Winter Solstice this has been for me so far. On the shortest day of the year and the darkest night of the year I feel light of spirit, present and full of gratitude. For this dark and broody Scorpio with an often security obsessed Taurus moon, feeling light, present and full of gratitude is not just a platitude to glibly throw around during this festive season. For me, these experiences are a complete transmutation from the state that I have come to identify as self into this new experience of self.
While my ancestors feared the length of the dark and the chill of the cold that this season brought, I feel supported and safe within the walls of our cozy home and surrounded by the vast whiteness that covers our ground. My husband is home for the season and rather than worry about finances like I did all of the previous Winter season, I am soaking up this family time, extra support and slowing down of the year.
This solstice, I’ve been reflecting on how our ancestors faced the fear of the dark, for them this was not a purely metaphoric or symbolic day, it was a very real threat to their livelihood the lack of light and warmth, and when faced with the threat of physical extinction or harm from the elements of this season they created ceremonies, rituals, festivals and reasons to celebrate and gather. They came together, they celebrated the light before it had actually returned, they prayed and danced and lived as if they had all that they desired.
How different our society is today, we are blessed with comforts in the first world countries and yet we are often so isolated, separate and alone in our pain. What would it be like if my instinctual reaction to fear was to gather closer to my community, if I could dance and celebrate the arrival of what I needed before it’s manifested appearance showed forth? What would it be like to be so in the moment that I celebrated life in the lack of the certainty of light, within the dark of the mystery and just revelled in the blessings of what was in that very moment.
It’s so easy to isolate but also to disassociate, there’s Netflix, white sugar, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, downy beds, iPhones, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat for the more social media hip than me, dating sites, online games and on and on the list goes, a virtual overload of ways to get lost in cyber land, chemically induced states of joy or relaxation, flat screened images of people’s best face on a menu ready to be ordered up, there’s more than enough resources to numb our pain at any given moment. We don’t need to feel and we don’t need one another, or so the great illusion tells us, it is so much ‘easier’ in the moment to just get lost in the matrix of distraction.
I don’t know how or why I feel so much more present lately than I have before, whenever a new state dawns on me I assume it’s a tipping point, some bit of work I’ve been walking towards internally for days, weeks, months or years has finally accumulated enough of a vibrational punch to shift me into a new reality. I am experiencing the blessings of presence that I have read so much about and I don’t desire to escape my life, my ups and my downs, I want to be with it all. I don’t feel the need to do any great and sweeping social media cleanse, I just feel more of a pull towards others, towards life that I can touch and feel rather than witness from behind a screen. The temptation to be lost in a realm of distraction has lessened and I suspect it is because life is feeling better than fantasy. While I still process a lot in a solitary way, this doesn’t feel synonymous with isolation to me, Capricorn has come to guide us into the Winter season and Capricorn is the prefect example of a solitary creature that is forever linked to their tribe.
Capricorn, which happens to rule my Feminine self, processes much internally in a solo way, and yet is the matriarch of their community, impelled to gather, share and to guide, she is a perfect example of grounded, thoughtful, connected ancestral presence. Capricorn reminds us to listen and follow the examples of our ancestors and focuses us on how we can give to the next seven generations.
For tonight my focus is on how I can give to the next seven generations in my lineage by being a fully present and participatory member of joy and peace within my family unit. When we moved back to this tiny town a year and a half ago I was hoping for community, slowly that has been building for me here. I have found our first spiritual centre in the area and have been teaching and offering readings, this is the other community that I am committed to offering my presence and joy to, my spiritual tribe, the people of my land, each act of service creates a ripple that extends into the far reaches of our cosmos and I get to be a part of that, what a blessing. Of course I will continue to be mindful of how I affect society as a whole, my two places of intention and focus for this next season will be within my family unit and my spiritual community and I trust that as I flourish in these area’s my presence will be a part of blessing the world around me.
I am closing out this year, and entering into the stillness of the Winter season with the intention to honour the impact of my presence on Earth, in what I say, what I do and how I be in this world, I am committed to not minimizing the importance of my presence here at this time and to also not inflating my ego’s need to create large and splashing expressions in order to feel validated about my importance in the world. I don’t need to fly in as super woman and save any one or lead any cause, I do however need to live from the integrity of my open heart, to offer my joy and my attention and to be mindful of how my vibration has the ability to uplift or to contribute to the density of the third dimensional reality, and that is enough for me. Knowing that I can influence the cosmos by uplifting is enough for this Priestess to feel content settling in for a long hibernation, a still season of self-growth, rejuvenation, enjoyment, peace and surrender.
I hope that each one of you too, find a blessing within the darkness of the Great Mother on tonight’s long journey into the mystery and I hope that this blessing is enough to carry you through the quiet of the Winter months with a sense of peace, groundedness and confidence in your purpose and place here on Mother Gaia. May we all be uplifters and may we all fall into the joy of the present moment, whether it be one that appears dark and cold or full of warmth and light, for as we learn on this transitional day, all appearances shift and change, while what is real and true remains steady and true despite the seasons of our life.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
image taken from: https://magoism.files.wordpress.com/2013/12/ldm-dark-mother.jpg
The Summer Solstice paired with the Mother Strawberry moon, the second Sagittarius full moon in a month, has completely depleted me.
I’m not a light gal, I’m a dark (not heavy, dark like mystery, cool, lunar, night) gal, today’s sun which is only to be followed by a fiery full moon has fried me.
My intention for this Solstice was to gather with the community that is slowly building for me here, as it was, the only time that worked for availability for everyone was two days ago. I had felt mildly disappointed that we were going to be gathering a full 48 hours before Solstice, however, as the day drew closer I became grateful for the time to prepare the way for today’s bright zenith.
As I panted and rubbed cool clothes all over me during this record breaking hot day I was immensely appreciative that grace had paved the way for us to meet before today, I don’t know that I could have led ceremony or set intention in this heat, sitting down to write feels like a miracle as it is.
Our ceremony was wonderful, we examined the shadow side of our sun sign and decided on what it was that we were wiling to release from our shadow self on the Solstice, today I threw a rock with what I was letting go of (written on it) into the creek that flowed beside my daughter and I. In ceremony we also went within to discover our power words for the four elements, words of power that we would walk with during this next phase of the wheel and intended for those qualities to be magnified during the Solstice hours.
The Sun is all power, we discussed power and the responsibility that comes with it and focused on the old saying “Do as Thou wilt an it harm none.”
I left the ceremony feeling lighter, feeling focused and feeling inspired. The past few weeks have been an energetic upswing for me, the laws of grace have been working in my life and I have been really devoted to practicing principles of grace in my days. I’ve been feeling simplified and called to really focus on home and family and with this has come a sense of peace and being settled.
I will utilize tonight’s Mothering Fiery Moon energy to reconnect to my passionate self and to re light the fires within. Tonight’s moon marks the end of my first moon time since my miscarriage, soon we will try again. There is much hope up ahead.
The Summer season is ruled by the water element in the tradition that I was trained in, water is my element, I yearn to flow and to wade, I am ready for the waters of Mother Nature. This season my focus is on surrender, passion, inspiration, trust, and family and home sweet home.
That’s all that I have for tonight, my family and I are about to take down our spring nature table, tomorrow morning my daughter will wake up to a wave puzzle and a new blue silk and summer book left for her from the Summer Mother Goddess. We are also going to take down the spring altar in our prayer room and review the cards that we had all pulled for the spring season. I was to focus on strength, visualization and passion this past season. I see now that I didn’t as much focus on those attributes as they found me. I needed strength to walk through my miscarriage and to face the demons of control that had been pulling at me for the past year. Visualization called for me to focus on what felt good rather than my worries, and passion challenged me to re-define what matters most to me in my life.
Tonight I will ask for the light of the moon and the light of the sun to guide us as we pull our summer cards and prepare for a new turn of the wheel, what lies ahead is a mystery to me, all that I know is that gentleness and peace seem to be guiding my way right now and for that I am eternally grateful.
Merrry Solstice to you and yours!
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
image taken from gostica.com (editing done by moi)