Tonight marks this years Sagittarius Full Moon, or it is called in feminine mysticism, a Sagittarius Mother Moon.
During my Priestess training I was taught that each of the four major phases of the moon corresponded with the four major archetypes that we experience as women, Maiden, Mother, Enchantress, Crone. Mother Moon’s are the full, loony, needing balance, abounding with emotional energy Moon’s. Each month the Mother Moon is influenced by a different astrological sign, though once a year we find a sign that gets to rule the Moon for two consecutive full moons, last year we had two Sagittarius Mother Moons.
I have found some interesting personal patterns of mine that rise up to the surface during the Sagittarius Mother Moon.
1) I get reflective, before writing this I decided to revisit last years’ Mother Moon post written at this time of year. I wanted to see where I was at last year at this time and what I had been experiencing. While reading last year’s post I discovered that I had done the exact same thing last year, read the previous years Sagittarius Mother Moon post, the only times that I have done this have been during Sagittarius Mother Moon’s.
2) I have a tendency to be dissatisfied or discontented during this particular Moon.
3) I find a ray of hope in looking back that I take with me into the future.
Two years ago the great upset was a total lack of knowing where my family and I would end up living and what job my husband would get, we had just moved cross country with a 20 month old and were living with my parents. Last year I looked back upon that time fondly and was settled into a new home with a steady rhythm, however, I had just miscarried a Sagittarius-to-be baby and was grieving that loss and not knowing what the future would hold for me with the potential of another baby. This year I am listening to my baby girl babble away as she practices preparing to roll!
There’s a few things this Moon is teaching me. The first is that it is but a pattern of mine to not be at my most joyful around this time of the year, the next is that the optimism that the Sagittarius Mother brings with her at this time offers her lunar hope to us all as she beams down from above. One of the ways that she does this for me is through highlighting how far my woes from a year ago have come. From being without a home base to having a steady lovely home, from grieving a miscarriage to listening to the cutest baby girl coo and explore in my home. I can look back upon what was concerning me and see how immensely life has shifted in the external realm.
Of course, I know that if life shifted externally, then something shifted internally first. This Priestess path that allows me to ebb and flow with the Wheel of the Year, the phases of the Moon and the Goddess Archetypes within me offer me ceaseless opportunities to expand and elevate my consciousness which then births new realities outside of myself.
I know that there are a lot of people that will suggest not focusing on what it is that we don’t want or that which we don’t like about our current situation, and I agree that focusing on the outsides won’t get us far. However, with mindful intent I see that I can recognize the parts of my life that aren’t in alignment with my highest joy and offer them up to Spirit, to allow Her grace to come in and create whatever change needs to occur, whether that be simply a change in perception or a shift in consciousness which effects a shift in my outer reality.
So, for tonight, I am focusing on the target of what it is in my life that I would like changed, I am asking the Sagittarius Mother Moon Archetype to shoot her bow and arrow right into the centre of my target so that the bright, optimistic, lunar energy that is at her fullest right now can create new life out of an old and out dated story in my life.
How will each one of you call upon our adventurous, optimistic, amazonian Sagittarius Moon tonight? Will you call upon illumination? Growth? Hope? Or will you simply call upon her bright unwavering grace to be with you? All Archetypes are after all but one more face of the One true Source expressing Itself in this realm to us in Her myriad forms and faces and how She is showing forth tonight is as a beacon of hope and as blessed change.
May tonight’s Moon bless and inspire you.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
Another Crone Moon is looming, darkly hidden in our skies tonight. The Crone Moon, for anyone that may not remember or may be new to this blog, is what we in Feminine Mysticism call the New Moon.
Crone Moon’s are Moon’s for releasing and letting go, they represent the cycle of the month when women traditionally bled together, when we utilized red tents and weren’t influenced by artificial light and chemicals in the same way that we are today. While the fertile women bled, the Crone’s who no longer bled sat in the red tents and shared their wisdom, prophecy and ways of old with the bleeding women, filling them with the sustenance of deep feminine wisdom.
Our womb spaces are intrinsically linked to the Moon, they are ruled by the water element and are the sacred cauldron’s of women, they are what make us women the Grand Receivers. Thus, when the Moon is dark she pulls at the waters in our womb and whether we are still bleeding with the cycle of this Moon, we are energetically at our lowest and the more tapped in we are the easier it is to consciously release.
Over the years I have witnessed which Moons and seasons feel the most comfortable to me, predictably I have preferred the watery Moon’s and the watery times of year, the Scorpio, Cancer, Pisces seasons and Moons, followed closely by the earthy times of year and Moons. I have shared quite often about how uncomfortable the fiery times are for me, air I seem to navigate okay, but the fire element and I, we have been working to find a harmonious relationship for years.
I was pleasantly surprised to find myself at ease with today’s energy, and inspired by the Sagittarius Moon and Sun that is infusing us with her energetic imprints right now. I was due to have a Sagittarius baby and spent a month trying to find a ‘click’ with this sign, a sign that has been up there with one of my least favourite signs out there. I loved that baby and knew that ushering in a Sagittarius life would hold great lessons and blessings for me and my family, alas, that baby was not meant to be earth~bound and we said goodbye to that baby over Mother’s Day when I miscarried.
I have been thinking about that baby a lot lately as my due date for her/him comes closer and closer, a lot has changed in the past months since that loss, I have a new pregnancy blooming within my womb, and I have a fondness for the first time ever with Sagittarius that has dawned within me. I give some of that credit to the baby and imagine that some of that baby’s consciousness lingers to teach me.
The big turn around for me has been an ability to tap into the hope, optimism and zeal that Sagittarius possesses by nature. Three aspects that used to feel foreign to me now feel inspiring and I understand why Sagittarius is such a refreshing time, she comes during our darkest days and lights us up, it’s as if she isn’t even aware of the heavy, sleepy energy that has been pulling us deeper and deeper, she certainly has no fear.
My birthday was a few weeks ago, during that oh~so~comfy Scorpio time of year when I was born, normally I don’t want for much on my birthday. I know that my parents are likely to give me a generous amount of money as a gift and my husband will get me whatever I have been fancying that year, last year it was two butterfly pillows, the year before a particular crystal. Our lives flow financially, yet we are by no means even close to being considered well off by society’s standards, so, when an oracle set that I had been enchanted with years ago during my Priestess training came back into my awareness I begged my husband to find a way to get it for me for my birthday (it is quite pricey). Between the two of us I am the much more stingy one, and while I could have bought it for myself, I really wanted my husband to do that magic that only he can do where he shows up with the thing I’ve been aching for that financially didn’t seem possible (he did that when he proposed to me with my dream ring that I had used as a template for the style I liked, never imagining that he would be able to find a way to purchase it for me.)
This oracle had been a huge part of my Priestess training, though it wasn’t a part of the curriculum I was trained under, it was quietly and unobtrusively sitting in a corner at the temple where I did my training. My first weekend away at the temple, introvert that I am, I slinked away from my sisters and sat down in the corner where this oracle also sat, I pulled a card and opened the book, expecting a digestible explanation for the card that I had pulled and instead felt myself being sucked deep within the depths of my very being. Each word was a feast to my soul, the visceral experience that I had using this oracle was like nothing I had experienced before from using a divination tool. There was much more to the oracle than I ever got to learn, there were runes and cd’s and an entire book that took one through it’s own Priestess Process, I only dabbled with this powerful tool. For a while after my ordination I would see this oracle in a local bookstore, it always seemed out of reach financially for me, but I knew that the day would come where I would splurge, that’s what I thought, until the day came that the store no longer carried the oracle, and despite the ardor I felt towards the set I eventually forgot what it was called.
7 years later and my best friend began to email me about some online Goddess work that had been inspiring her of late, as I followed some of the links to the forums that she had been participating in I realized that the Priestess of this forum was trained under the lineage of the oracle that I had lost years ago. I’m sure you’ve guessed by now that my husband did his magic and for the past three weeks now I am one deeply revered owner of said oracle (find link to this oracle at the bottom of this post).
I have begun to study it from the beginning and was waiting patiently to get to the section that discussed the cards, that was the plan, until the cards began to call to me. They are deeper than cards, they are depth incarnate and they shift my consciousness simply by my pulling and studying bits and pieces of their meaning. I have felt fundamental portions of who I have identified myself with shifting as I have gotten deeper and deeper into this work, and this is what I am contemplating as I excitedly invite tonight’s Crone Moon energy into my life experience.
I like hope. I like optimism. I like zeal. Me! I am the last person in the world that I would have ever suspected would experience a positive connection to these qualities. I am observing as all new windows of opportunity open for me to experience aspects of self that I have never known before, I am able to envision a future that is a mystery and an adventure awaiting me. The older I got, the more predictable I was believing life to be, despite my desire for magic and awakening to continue to grow, something was calcifying within me as I aged and I began to roll my eyes a lot more at concepts that had once lit the younger version of me up.
With the influx of hopeful, truth seeking, believing energy of the Sagittarius Crone with me tonight, I give thanks for a deepening of my experience of life. On this eve there is a depth that is as deep as the darkest depths that I have enjoyed trudging through for years and yet warmer, lighter and happier than that which I have yet known. There is a freedom to realizing that I am still a student of myself, Sagittarius is the philosopher, the great seeker of truth, and I feel this energy infusing my desire to open and to expand my consciousness to greater widths than ever before, and I believe that is still possible.
I have been telling my husband this week, “I want this to be a fresh cycle,” the upcoming Winter season, “even if it looks similar to last Winter, I don’t want to assume it will be, I want this cycle to be fresh.” That is what I am intending for all of my life right now. The Sagittarius Crone is encouraging me to release rigid old beliefs, to soften the calcification of pragmatism that was solidifying my view of myself and what it was I thought that I was capable of and to let go of my identification with everything. As I let go of all that I identify myself with, I become the student again, out on a quest to find my truest nature, the eternal Sagittarian quest for the highest truth and the highest state of consciousness, that is what I am intending tonight.
Generally an extroverted sign, this sign being under the introverted, lunar energy of the Moon is turning it’s expanded vision from the outer realm back into the inner ones for all of us tonight. As we open up to the zeal, optimism and expansion of Sagittarius as the Crone Moon, what can we collectively release so that we may become as students ready and willing to open wider and to rise higher? What would it be like, if all of us as a community were able to release our identification with all concepts and ways of being that we had previously believed to be representations of us, and what would our wold look like if each one of us took that expanded vision of the Sagittarian Adventurer and turned it inward, focusing on an inner journey before focusing on the outer world and it’s illusory stories in front of us? What kind of a world can we envision tonight as we align with the powerful Sagittarius Crone Moon?
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
artist: Autumn Skye
link to oracle: http://www.13moonmysteryschool.org/13_moon_cards.html
Tonight’s Mother Moon is a blue moon, the second full moon in one month. This month has been insanely intense for me, the fact that five planets have been retrograde has not made this pressure cooker of a month feel any easier.
I have been dreading tonight’s moon, and in my dreading has come an avoidance to writing tonight. Because of this avoidance I have been reading old posts of mine about Sagittarius Mother Moon’s. On my Priestess of Grace Facebook page I found that the majority of Sagittarius Mother Moon’s I have written about have been big one’s, they have been super moons and moons ending eclipses or moons on Friday the 13th. I also discovered that last year’s Sagittarius Mother Moon was also full during a Mercury Retrograde, it was also not an easy one for me.
What I found interesting when I read last year’s blog post about the Sagittarius Mother Moon was remembering what a tough time that moon was for me, and yet, in retrospect I have found memories of that time. The unknown, living with my parents, the quiet spring days that felt so long are now warm memories of a time when we were all close as a family and awaiting what would be. What a profound and cliched truth that the times when we struggle become the ones we remember with fondness, once we are through them.
I don’t know if that will be the case with this time in my life however.
I have been dreading tonight’s moon because it is a Sagittarius Mother Moon. Normally I don’t look forward to Sagittarius energies, as it is one of my least favourite energies, however, I had conceived a Sag-to-be. While I was pregnant with my little archer I began to appreciate this energy, as I contemplated how I would mother a Sagittarius and how young Sagittarius energy would influence our family dynamic all of the most shining qualities of Sagittarius began to rise up in my consciousness. I felt the little archer influencing my energy as it grew in my womb.
I actually became excited to be around Sagittarius energy.
I was excited.
And then I miscarried. A big, messy, bloody, almost pass out and end in surgery miscarriage.
I new this moon was coming and I was not looking forward to it, in fact we will have two Sagittarius Mother Moon’s this year and the idea of big emotional Sagittarius energy made me fear what would come up for me. Where is my lesson in all of this?
As if loosing my baby wasn’t hard enough for us as a family, less than two weeks later my father-in-law passed away. That’s one baby and one father that my husband lost within a two week period. At this point I was expecting us all to just sink down into a dark abyss of despair, a heavy, sinking swamp of grief for our family to wade through.
Somehow, unexpectedly, I feel brighter than ever, and my husband that has been struggling immensely, which has meant large struggles within our marriage, with his father’s cancer, seems softer and more grounded than ever. I attribute this to a few factors, first grace, big grace to carry us through this time, and next love, our marriage came to a breaking point of grief and we decided we had to find lightness and love with each other despite our circumstances, and lastly, the spirit of my Sagittarius baby and my father-in-law.
I truly feel as though that Sagittarius spirit-to-be, the sign of optimism and good luck is with me now, I feel that little being beside me like a cherub angel and I feel as though the pureness of that being blesses me and is infusing me with optimism and hope, two things that are very foreign to my nature.
I also feel as though my father-in-law is guiding my husband through this time and his gentle spirit is tending to my husband’s heart.
Sagittarius Mother Moon’s are all about emotional optimism and emotional adventures. I have been just so stressed and sad these past months and after my husband and I hit our breaking point I began to reach up spiritually, I needed to be lightened and to get back into the vortex, I could not live in the realm of circumstances because the circumstances just continued to get worse and worse.
I found an Abraham Hick’s prosperity process, it involves spending energetic money, $1,000 the first day $2,000 the next and so on, you write cheques and decide what you will spend your energetic money on. The first day I ‘bought’ more groceries, herbal products and some more items I had been needing but waiting on due to our budget. The second day I got stuck after ‘spending’ $800, that was eye opening to me, I didn’t know how to spend dream money. I didn’t know how to dream about what I wanted for the joy of it, I realized I spend my time dreaming about what I want in the needs department and the ministry department but not so much in the fun and wants department. As I began to expand my dreams and to get into the ‘spending’ all of a sudden new money began to appear, money that I wanted deposited into our savings account, I always want extra money in the savings account. It dawned on me, if we had extra money that flowed into our life, we could take a small portion for us as a family, just as ‘fun’ money, I suggested this to my husband and he agreed, for the first time in years I began to feel excited and happy about money and not at all stressed about spending it.The next day, I realized that we had even more extra money, more to deposit into savings and more to take a portion for some fun.
This energy of flow and prosperity and enjoying the prosperity and being ‘lucky’ (I don’t believe in luck but it’s the Sagittarius term) reminds me about the bright side of Sagittarius. I’ve had many Sagittarius men in my life and now this baby and these moons, so much Sagittarius energy, energy that was my least favourite for a very long time, energy that I resisted up until this baby, energy that I probably always would have resisted if not for this baby. I feel blessed by the archer now and I feel blessed to have an archer spirit by my side, my ‘good luck’ spirit.
Tonight, as the moon shines full of optimism and hope I open my heart up, willing and ready to feel the pain, and exceptionally surprised to find that there is joy, light and hope that is shining through. The moon rules the emotions and the emotional realm is our guidance system, it tells us whether we are in alignment with Source energy or not. A positive and uplifting Sagittarius Mother Moon gives us all the opportunity to walk through our darker emotions and step into the light of the vortex
As you open yourself and your heart up to the archer moon tonight you may find that some of this adventurous, unfiltered, lucky energy enlivens your emotional world and begins to create experiences beyond your wildest dreams, that’s the goal I have set my sites on for tonight, a life that is beyond my dreams, a life that is guided and directed by my full and beautiful emotional guidance system.
This is a complete turn about for my soul, once upon a time, 13 years ago, I discovered that I had a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body that could only be overcome by obtaining hope. I was crushed, I shared with my tribe that hope was something I would not tolerate, I wound’t, couldn’t risk opening myself up to hope and being let down, I had been too crushed by life, too traumatized and betrayed. 13 years later and in the face of a devastating two weeks I find myself buoyed and carried on the wings of hope and this hope that I find comfort and validation in only leads to more hope as I witness true change and evolution within my soul’s evolution on this earth plane.
Tonight I am soaking up this hope and beaming it out into the world from my open and full heart, I wish that all of you will ride these lunar beams of hope into newer expressions of life and dreaming and love as we continue to evolve and grow together on the wings of hope’s light.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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What a moon tonight’s moon is. I adore Astrologer Coach Sonja Francis, her moon video’s speak to me at such a deep level, tonight’s post was particularly illuminating for me, you can find it here : https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=583&v=loj1fIcF3PU
The Crone Moon is the destroyer, this is the time that women used to all bleed together in red tents, the Crone Moon comes in and destroys all potential for life that has not been fertilized, we are emptied and left barren, wide open for new seeds to be planted. The planting time comes during the Maiden moon however, and tonight is a night to be destroyed and shattered.
Sagittarius is notorious for her lack of filter, what she thinks or feels she says and her blunt opinion lands where it lands on the sensitive and the resilient alike.
The Sagittarius Crone moon makes no distinction as to what she destroys, if it isn’t grounded down and holding on with deep roots it will be washed clean from us. Sagittarius is adventurous and daring, there is nowhere that this Crone moon will not explore within us.
Sagittarius is also bright and optimistic and that means that while this Crone Moon is digging deep, it is uprooting to make room for a brighter future and a more authentic road to actualizing ourselves.
How this is showing up in the microcosm of my life sounds quite ordinary and a bit melodramatic when I sit down to write it, bear with me and I’ll highlight the parallels that I’m finding to these philosophical truths that the philosopher Sag moon is brining in.
The winter plan that my husband and I have had for a while was that when he got laid off I would get a waitressing job for the winter, he would be at home and upholding our daily rhythm during my shifts and come the spring when he was back to work I would quit. That was the original plan, since then I have contemplated perhaps staying during the spring and summer as we are hoping to expand our family and some extra cash until I birth again would be nice. We have seen that our daughter has a blast with her grandparents while we are both at play rehearsal and with the play being completed by the spring my two or three shifts would be a fun time for her to spend with her grandparents.
My husband is officially laid off and today was the day to put out resume’s, I said a prayer and went into meditation, if it was in alignment with the Divine Mother’s will please let it be so and if not please don’t let it flow.
I was hired, at the first place I applied, on the spot. <<<< Now, I went in with a reference from a friend of the manager and I am living in a small town now and connections mean a lot, but still for this time of year to get hired on the spot is quite remarkable, I took this as my answer from the Goddess and left feeling uplifted and excited.
However, within a few minutes my stomach was in knots and I was imagining all of the freedom that I have with my daughter that I wouldn’t have anymore, imagining a Christmas season that I’m not a part of, imagining my husband being called back to work early, imagining play rehearsals and waitressing away from her, and most of all, at the back of my mind a voice kept repeating “you’re not a stay at home Mom anymore.” Woah, that felt heavy.
I sat down and contemplated the moon, the philosophical elements that any Sagittarius placement carries with it and I began to question my decision. Perhaps I was going against my philosophy, we do have enough to get by, was I acting on fear of lack of money rather than staying committed to my path of staying at home that brings me so much joy and fulfillment?
I had a talk with my Mom and my husband and began to feel a bit less panicked, then I listen to Sonja’s recording and I began to feel inspired. She reminded me that this energy of the moon’s placement in Sagittarius is about expanding, about exploring new horizons, paving a way for the future, trying new experiences.
I am such a fixed person, I really like finding my niche and just settling in and getting snuggy. Sagittarius has always been a challenging energy for me, it hurts my feelings and pushes me to go waaaayyy beyond my comfort zone, but tonight, I felt the wisdom of the Crone coming through the Sagittarius moon.
This will be a new adventure for me, and it really isn’t about whether I decide to waitress or stay at home, it’s about how I interpret new opportunities. I had just as much a choice to be excited and think that this would be fantastic, even if I discovered it wasn’t and changed my mind, but I had chosen to jump to dread and worry and fear. Change doesn’t excite me, it scares me.
But, it could excite me.
I have the ability to change, I have the ability to evolve and to transform. I can choose to let go of my fear of change, I can choose to get excited about new experiences, I can choose to be grateful for the opportunity to taste new adventures.
Perhaps if I choose to embrace change and to be excited by it I’ll get even more exciting opportunities, opportunities that expand beyond waitressing two shifts a week in a small town 😉 perhaps I’ll get opportunities that I couldn’t even envision at this point in my life if my resistance to change is lifted.
That is my intention tonight, to let go, to flow not only in the watery and emotive way that I am used to, but to flow in the fiery molten lava rivers of passion and courage that Sagittarius offers us during this time of year. I intend to let go and to blaze forward like an unstoppable inferno of heat and passion, I intend to live this portion of my life to it’s fullest. I am learning from Sagittarius as the Crone that I will not allow age or responsibilities to dull the zest of my youth, this zest will be with me for the entirety of my life and I welcome it with open arms tonight.
I am created anew everyday and everyday I have a choice to resort to who I was yesterday, that is easy and familiar, or I can choose to be new, to know nothing and to start all over. Perhaps I will find that my philosophies about life are not fixed, perhaps they are just beginning to be formed, perhaps this is just the beginning of a new chapter of excitement and discovery.
How are you experiencing tonight’s moon? What are you releasing?
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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