What a beginning to a ‘New Year’, wow oh wow, a Mother super moon on the very first day of the year and an ’11’ year in terms of numerology.
New Year’s is not the same for me as it is for a lot of other people, being a Priestess that honours the Wheel of the Year, Samhain is my ‘New Year’ of letting go of the dead and old and making space for the barren openness of Winter’s hibernation to regenerate new life in the inner realms of my soul’s darkened cave.
However, I love any holiday that is celebrated by the masses, (even the ones bemoaned as being fuelled by a consumerist agenda), as there is a collective energy that ensues. Any time that we take our one consciousness and focus it on a common energy of celebration, love, warmth and togetherness I feel as though we are finally pointing in the right direction energetically.
The interesting thing about the New Year of the Gregorian calendar year, is that it does resonate to a new set of numbers. Now, of all of the witchy things that I have a proclivity towards, practicing numerology is not one of them, I feel the power that lies within the art of numerology, it’s just not the practice that I’m called to serve in, in this lifetime. Thankfully there are powerful numerologists that exist and when the realm of numbers calls to me I find some juicy info to quench my desire.
I was pleasantly surprised at how energized, enlivened, peaceful and vibrant I felt today, it did not surprise me one bit to learn about the super moon in the beautiful, watery Cancer sign aligning with our 11 year.
I adore Cancer women and seem drawn to a lot of Cancer rising women, theres’s something about their womanly, nurturing, psychic dreamy presence that makes me feel at ease and loved. When the moon beams lunar rays of Cancer Mother energy down to me I know that all is well in the world. A super moon of course means that this energy is amplified. The first day of the 11 year is guided by amplified Motherly Psychic energy, yes please!
11 is a master number, one of spiritual enlightenment and love, this year is all about gaining deeper enlightenment in the realm of spiritual truth and focusing on the power of love, exactly what came to me in my psychic card reading (posted on my Instagram page, priestess_of_grace) this morning.
This moon is also named the ‘Wolf Moon’ and has been called the howling moon, this is reflected for me today in the constant howls of my 4 year old and 9 month old maidens that are non-stop, they are wired with this moon’s energy and their howls remind me of the pure, unadulterated strength of sound that we carry within us. Before the world silences and shames us we come here loud, proud and ready to howl, in fact it was just the other day that my 4 year old maiden howled at me these words: “I’m allowed to feel my feelings!” yes you are dear one, yes you are.
I feel the culmination of all of these energies, the Mother, water, psychic ability, spiritual mastery, love, howling, coming together to illuminate the seeds that I am called to focus on in this upcoming calendar year. I have been feeling the pull to revisit the original, foundational roots of my spiritual path. These roots were weakened after I became a mother and jumped into primal security and survival for my tribe mode. I feel as though I am finally ready to take these truths that I could flow with and live in faith with in my single years and carry my family on them as well.
I feel the Mother calling me close to Her, reminding me that She is my caretaker and that I am here only to receive Her love and to extend it, all else She will take care of. I am to howl the truth when fear rears it’s ugly head, to look up to the silvery beams of the moon and howl loudly to Mother of Us All. She hears my cries and responds to my needs as any loving Mother would. I am only to focus on Love and on Her presence, ever with me.
This year my focus is a closer awareness of Mother, an unwavering commitment to love and surrender to the flow of service that my Mother calls me too. I will soak the beams of tonight’s moon up and go deep into meditation, igniting the super moon, Cancer and 11 energies that are here to begin my new year with, won’t you all join me in looking up into the face of the silvery Mother Moon and howling our commitment to love and to Her for this new year.
Grace Be With You and Happy New Year,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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Something lovely is taking place inside of me, there is a warmth, a steadiness, a sense of returning Home after a long, long journey through the desert.
‘Desert periods’ are the descriptive word that metaphysics use to describe periods of time during one’s spiritual walk, sometimes long, sometimes short, where despite continued practice, devotion and attendance to the principles one work’s with, there is just a sense of barrenness, a lack of felt presence of the One, wavered faith, signs not seeming to appear. It is promised, that if the walker will continue their walk, continue their prayers, meditations, devotions, that this period will end, and with the end of the desert period a renewed, strengthened experience of Source will descend upon them.
I have had more dramatic desert periods than this one that is coming to an end, ones that felt torturous and scary, had I lost my connection forever I would cry out. To be honest, I don’t know if the desert periods were dramatic or if it was just my younger, dramatic Scorpio self, I suspect it was the later. I can’t imagine what going through a desert period like this one would have been like for me if it had happened 13 years ago, I’m going to credit linear earth-bound time put into the path in this lifetime for the acceptance I’ve found during this desert walk, though I didn’t know if this one was going to end and I feared that I had cut myself off, that the level of groundedness motherhood required had cut me off permanently, or at least until my crone years.
It seems so magically fitting that during the dawn of a Mother Moon, my birthday moon to be exact this desert period finally comes to an end.
I was born at the tail end of a Taurus Mother Moon, my astrological make up is full of contradictions, my sun sign and moon sign oppose each other, my rising sign is in Libra, so each of my houses are in the opposite sign of their house.
I imagine that I am meant to be the centre piece, the middle meeting ground of all opposing energies. As a Priestess I merge the opposing energies of the heavenly realms and the earthly ones, as a student of mysticism I honour the One presence in all things, as a Resonant Skywalker I jump dimensions, I have only one physical eye which points me in the direction of single sightedness, all of these bits and pieces add up to a life served finding and connecting to the One Source, so when a desert period hits and I am pulled in two, threes, fours and full of 3rd dimensional polarities I just don’t feel myself, to say the least. So to come back together into Oneness feels divine right now.
Now, here we are at the beginning of the Mother Moon which opposes the Sun in Scorpio, this is a balancing of what is dead and what is alive, like all Mother’s the Mother Moon is full of energy, emotion and needs to balance her external and internal energies. Tonight (early morning) as the moon looms full we are all called upon to balance the parts within ourselves that are full of life, sweetness, abundance, with what is coming forth externally as decayed and ready to die away to be released. We are in the season of death, everything around us is dying away and rotting, Scorpio intensely calls on all of us to own up to what is rotten in our lives, while we do this deep shamanic grave digging through the dark recesses of our lives, the opposing, completing energy of the Taurus archetype shines a warm light on all of the reasons that we are going digging in the shit right now, the more we clear away, kill off, acknowledge and release the more room we have for the comfort, ease and lushness of our true soul’s essence.
Kali is here to make way for Gaia to flourish and blossom, we are both Kali and Gaia during this time of year. Because I live such an astrologically contradictory existence, this time of year which is tough for most is when I am most at ease. I have no problem digging through the shit, in fact I like having something to dig up, expose and release. I love finding what’s rotting and discarding it, and this Taurus Mother Moon is such a welcome visitor, because she’s alighting my inner world and showing me just how lovely all of the time and energy put into conscious alignment has been for my soul, it’s as if a warm oil lamp infused with musky patchouli has been lit and I can see soft plush orange couches and coral painted walls, I hear harp music playing while veils of silk hang down invitingly over a feathered bed, this is the room of my wombspace, the area where I receive into me all of the energy that I take in. The palace in my pineal gland, my third eye home is crystalline, lit up with starlight and midnight skies sparkle with the luminosity of the stars, each one a truth that I have applied in my life, my inner rooms are clean! And now they are being filled with the abundance of Gaia, Kali is swirling through the rooms of my chakras ensuring that nothing sticks around to rot, she is a whirling dervish of ferocity, refusing to allow me to hang onto anything that doesn’t serve me, and she is so precise and present with me because I have allowed her to reign supreme in my life, as she blows through with her quick sword to cut away all of the rubbish, Gaia blooms within my heart, my womb, my third eye, Gaia and Kali, what a delicate and delicious balance these two expressions of the One Source are.
And that’s where I find myself on tonight’s moon, surrendered and blooming, dying and birthing, releasing and receiving, acting and resting, it is a divine dance and it is truly an intoxicating moon for me.
Can you feel Kali blowing into your life tonight? Do you feel Gaia blessing you with her abundant lushness? Kali and Gaia are two archetypal expressions of the Divine One, they are hear with us in intense expression for a brief moment as the moon rises, the more we allow these Goddess expressions into our world, the cleaner and safer the matrix becomes for all who reside within it for now as we collectively rise up in consciousness towards a new world order.
Until our next Mother Moon,
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
The moon is full tonight, in Feminine Mysticism the full moon is known as the Mother Moon. This knowledge, that the full moon is the Mother, has been with me for some time now. I understand that the emotional energy is at it’s highest during this phase of the moon, that the astrological sign it falls under influences how we feel her energy, and that the Mother phase is full, in need of balance and very busy.
This knowledge seems to have dropped from my head and down into my heart in the last 24 hours. As my husband and I balanced getting our 3.5 year old to a fair, dressed to be a flower girl, to the wedding, pick up clothing orders, plan for meals, get work done, maintain the house and follow sleep cues for our four month old daughter, that corny saying that I’ve read in the mother boards began to echo in my head “the days are long but the years are short,” in the midst of the chaos, it dawned on me that life will not always be like this. One day our children will be grown up and life will not be this demanding and full, we might choose to keep it full or make unconscious choices that make it feel demanding, but it won’t be guaranteed, non stop full on like it is now. That’s where my new appreciation for the Mother Moon energies came from.
I got it, that fullness, that looniness, that need for balance when things are at their peak that the Mother phase of the Moon holds is what I am living right now. As I connected the energies of the Mother Moon and the Mother phase of life together I began to feel the Mother Moon looming in the skies as the moon turned full over the past 24 hours.
The Mother Moon is a Capricorn one this month, she is balancing out the energies of career/calling with home and family, just today I was explaining to my husband that right now and for the next while I am predominantly ‘mom’ and most of my other identities feel lost. Thankfully I know, having already raised a daughter for 3.5 years, that this will ease up as our baby continues to grow. With Gracious, my eldest, by 20 months I was feeling like myself, like a woman who had the role of Mother to play as one of many roles in life, rather than my life having been usurped by becoming a mom and having that role as my sole identity, as I once feared it would be when I first became a mother.
The moon rules our emotions, Capricorn is studious and down to earth, she is also the Matriarch of the zodiac, with Capricorn ruling this Mother Moon, I felt as if she was coming in to offer me perspective. As my eldest daughter ran around the house as if she were in a jungle and I contemplated ways to get her energy out while also napping the baby and wondered how I would ever get a moment to myself again a calm began to descend upon me.
“The days are long but the years are short,” it was as if the Capricorn moon was reminding me not to get caught up in the overwhelm of how much time and energy I was outputting to my tiny little fairies and reminding me that this is a phase, this is the main job for me right now but it is not the only job I have, nor is it the only one I will ever have, it is however the one that needs the most attention and energy right now. A very inspiring Capricorn woman for me, Patti Smith, writes about how when she had children she stopped performing all together, she stayed home to raise her family. Despite criticism from the feminist community at the time, she wanted to make that decision, she did get up at 5am every morning to write, but the rest of her hours were spent taking care of her family as if that were her career. It was only after the tragic death of her partner that she returned to performing and that was to make money to keep the family going.
That portrait of Patti Smith is the personification of the Capricorn/Cancer balance to me, (we are balancing opposite signs Cap and Cancer as Cap is ruling the moon right now and Cancer the sun). It is also the epitome of the strength of self that she had at that time, to be fully immersed in her family life, to be enjoying her creativity for her own artistic self and to be out of the spotlight, to not fear fading into oblivion during her mothering years, what a balance she must have had between her home and her calling, to have faith that she could go back to her calling as a performer when her children were older and to have faith that she could fully fall into her calling as mother as a career and be okay with that.
That is my focus this month, the amount of minutes that I have to put into my personal calling outside of motherhood is much less than it will ever be, and that is okay, there’s a purpose to me giving as much as I’m giving right now. I am the primary vessel for Source to care for these young bodies and old souls right now as they reintegrate back onto Earth, the writing, the circles, the readings, they will all be there whenever I am ready to pick them up, but these years, these years will never come again, this is my highest work right now.
I love feeling the introverted home maker Cancer Mother archetype when she is ruling the Sun, her energy is so strong and inspiring for me as I tend my home, and I love when the stern Capricorn comes into the light of the full moon and my desires to extend out of the home and into the community, another great role of the Capricorn Goddess, is lit up within my heart, the balance that comes feels reassuring and comforting.
As I walk out of the light of this moon, I am taking perspective with me, right sized-ness and a reminder that some of the roles that we play in life have specific timings and requirements to them and that that is okay. Whether I am in the busy Mother phase of my life or not, one thing that remains steady and unchanging is the top priority in my life, which is a conscious and unwavering relationship with the Source within me, as long as that is at the centre of my soul, all else is balanced around that white, hot beam of alignment with Source, and when I am aligned I can be at peace, being right where I am in the moment, regardless of how chaotic and busy it may be.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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Tonight marks this years Sagittarius Full Moon, or it is called in feminine mysticism, a Sagittarius Mother Moon.
During my Priestess training I was taught that each of the four major phases of the moon corresponded with the four major archetypes that we experience as women, Maiden, Mother, Enchantress, Crone. Mother Moon’s are the full, loony, needing balance, abounding with emotional energy Moon’s. Each month the Mother Moon is influenced by a different astrological sign, though once a year we find a sign that gets to rule the Moon for two consecutive full moons, last year we had two Sagittarius Mother Moons.
I have found some interesting personal patterns of mine that rise up to the surface during the Sagittarius Mother Moon.
1) I get reflective, before writing this I decided to revisit last years’ Mother Moon post written at this time of year. I wanted to see where I was at last year at this time and what I had been experiencing. While reading last year’s post I discovered that I had done the exact same thing last year, read the previous years Sagittarius Mother Moon post, the only times that I have done this have been during Sagittarius Mother Moon’s.
2) I have a tendency to be dissatisfied or discontented during this particular Moon.
3) I find a ray of hope in looking back that I take with me into the future.
Two years ago the great upset was a total lack of knowing where my family and I would end up living and what job my husband would get, we had just moved cross country with a 20 month old and were living with my parents. Last year I looked back upon that time fondly and was settled into a new home with a steady rhythm, however, I had just miscarried a Sagittarius-to-be baby and was grieving that loss and not knowing what the future would hold for me with the potential of another baby. This year I am listening to my baby girl babble away as she practices preparing to roll!
There’s a few things this Moon is teaching me. The first is that it is but a pattern of mine to not be at my most joyful around this time of the year, the next is that the optimism that the Sagittarius Mother brings with her at this time offers her lunar hope to us all as she beams down from above. One of the ways that she does this for me is through highlighting how far my woes from a year ago have come. From being without a home base to having a steady lovely home, from grieving a miscarriage to listening to the cutest baby girl coo and explore in my home. I can look back upon what was concerning me and see how immensely life has shifted in the external realm.
Of course, I know that if life shifted externally, then something shifted internally first. This Priestess path that allows me to ebb and flow with the Wheel of the Year, the phases of the Moon and the Goddess Archetypes within me offer me ceaseless opportunities to expand and elevate my consciousness which then births new realities outside of myself.
I know that there are a lot of people that will suggest not focusing on what it is that we don’t want or that which we don’t like about our current situation, and I agree that focusing on the outsides won’t get us far. However, with mindful intent I see that I can recognize the parts of my life that aren’t in alignment with my highest joy and offer them up to Spirit, to allow Her grace to come in and create whatever change needs to occur, whether that be simply a change in perception or a shift in consciousness which effects a shift in my outer reality.
So, for tonight, I am focusing on the target of what it is in my life that I would like changed, I am asking the Sagittarius Mother Moon Archetype to shoot her bow and arrow right into the centre of my target so that the bright, optimistic, lunar energy that is at her fullest right now can create new life out of an old and out dated story in my life.
How will each one of you call upon our adventurous, optimistic, amazonian Sagittarius Moon tonight? Will you call upon illumination? Growth? Hope? Or will you simply call upon her bright unwavering grace to be with you? All Archetypes are after all but one more face of the One true Source expressing Itself in this realm to us in Her myriad forms and faces and how She is showing forth tonight is as a beacon of hope and as blessed change.
May tonight’s Moon bless and inspire you.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly