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Taurus Mother Moon, Gaia meets Kali

Something lovely is taking place inside of me, there is a warmth, a steadiness, a sense of returning Home after a long, long journey through the desert.

‘Desert periods’ are the descriptive word that metaphysics use to describe periods of time during one’s spiritual walk, sometimes long, sometimes short, where despite continued practice, devotion and attendance to the principles one work’s with, there is just a sense of barrenness, a lack of felt presence of the One, wavered faith, signs not seeming to appear. It is promised, that if the walker will continue their walk, continue their prayers, meditations, devotions, that this period will end, and with the end of the desert period a renewed, strengthened experience of Source will descend upon them.

I have had more dramatic desert periods than this one that is coming to an end, ones that felt torturous and scary, had I lost my connection forever I would cry out. To be honest, I don’t know if the desert periods were dramatic or if it was just my younger, dramatic Scorpio self, I suspect it was the later. I can’t imagine what going through a desert period like this one would have been like for me if it had happened 13 years ago, I’m going to credit linear earth-bound time put into the path in this lifetime for the acceptance I’ve found during this desert walk, though I didn’t know if this one was going to end and I feared that I had cut myself off, that the level of groundedness motherhood required had cut me off permanently, or at least until my crone years.

It seems so magically fitting that during the dawn of a Mother Moon, my birthday moon to be exact this desert period finally comes to an end.

I was born at the tail end of a Taurus Mother Moon, my astrological make up is full of contradictions, my sun sign and moon sign oppose each other, my rising sign is in Libra, so each of my houses are in the opposite sign of their house.

I imagine that I am meant to be the centre piece, the middle meeting ground of all opposing energies. As a Priestess I merge the opposing energies of the heavenly realms and the earthly ones, as a student of mysticism I honour the One presence in all things, as a Resonant Skywalker I jump dimensions, I have only one physical eye which points me in the direction of single sightedness, all of these bits and pieces add up to a life served finding and connecting to the One Source, so when a desert period hits and I am pulled in two, threes, fours and full of 3rd dimensional polarities I just don’t feel myself, to say the least. So to come back together into Oneness feels divine right now.

Now, here we are at the beginning of the Mother Moon which opposes the Sun in Scorpio, this is a balancing of what is dead and what is alive, like all Mother’s the Mother Moon is full of energy, emotion and needs to balance her external and internal energies. Tonight (early morning) as the moon looms full we are all called upon to balance the parts within ourselves that are full of life, sweetness, abundance, with what is coming forth externally as decayed and ready to die away to be released. We are in the season of death, everything around us is dying away and rotting, Scorpio intensely calls on all of us to own up to what is rotten in our lives, while we do this deep shamanic grave digging through the dark recesses of our lives, the opposing, completing energy of the Taurus archetype shines a warm light on all of the reasons that we are going digging in the shit right now, the more we clear away, kill off, acknowledge and release the more room we have for the comfort, ease and lushness of our true soul’s essence.

Kali is here to make way for Gaia to flourish and blossom, we are both Kali and Gaia during this time of year. Because I live such an astrologically contradictory existence, this time of year which is tough for most is when I am most at ease. I have no problem digging through the shit, in fact I like having something to dig up, expose and release. I love finding what’s rotting and discarding it, and this Taurus Mother Moon is such a welcome visitor, because she’s alighting my inner world and showing me just how lovely all of the time and energy put into conscious alignment has been for my soul, it’s as if a warm oil lamp infused with musky patchouli has been lit and I can see soft plush orange couches and coral painted walls, I hear harp music playing while veils of silk hang down invitingly over a feathered bed, this is the room of my wombspace, the area where I receive into me all of the energy that I take in. The palace in my pineal gland, my third eye home is crystalline, lit up with starlight and midnight skies sparkle with the luminosity of the stars, each one a truth that I have applied in my life, my inner rooms are clean! And now they are being filled with the abundance of Gaia, Kali is swirling through the rooms of my chakras ensuring that nothing sticks around to rot, she is a whirling dervish of ferocity, refusing to allow me to hang onto anything that doesn’t serve me, and she is so precise and present with me because I have allowed her to reign supreme in my life, as she blows through with her quick sword to cut away all of the rubbish, Gaia blooms within my heart, my womb, my third eye, Gaia and Kali, what a delicate and delicious balance these two expressions of the One Source are.

And that’s where I find myself on tonight’s moon, surrendered and blooming, dying and birthing, releasing and receiving, acting and resting, it is a divine dance and it is truly an intoxicating moon for me.

Can you feel Kali blowing into your life tonight? Do you feel Gaia blessing you with her abundant lushness? Kali and Gaia are two archetypal expressions of the Divine One, they are hear with us in intense expression for a brief moment as the moon rises, the more we allow these Goddess expressions into our world, the cleaner and safer the matrix becomes for all who reside within it for now as we collectively rise up in consciousness towards a new world order.

Until our next Mother Moon,

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

 

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Tonight on Priestess of Grace’s Facebook Page: Moon Mysteries, Aries Mother Moon

Tonight on Priestess of Grace’s Facebook Page: Moon Mysteries, Pisces Mother Moon

Aquarius Mother Moon, preparing to step into the Lion’s Gate Portal

I’m happy to read that in years past at the Aquarian Mother Moon I was as tired as I have been of late. This year I know a big contributor to my tiredness is processing “die off” as my gut heals, I’ve been on a big gut healing kick these past few months, and besides the die off phases (I’ve just added a prebiotic drink to my regimen,) I have been feeling fantastic. Upon reflection I would describe my current state for the most part these past few months as feeling soft, at ease and chill, such a difference from the keyed up state I have been wound up in for far too long.

Another aspect to this sleepiness I know, is the great energy portals opening up right now. During the month of July I became aware of how potent the energy in the air was feeling, lower vibrations were shifting easier than ever and remaining in a state of bliss was becoming a real possibility, how much of this corresponded to my gut healing (seriously I’m amazed, for someone that puts so little focus on the body as a vehicle to joy I’m wondering if my Highest Self doesn’t live in my gut!) and how much had to do with planets aligning and mass evolution occurring. I purposefully didn’t research what was happening on a planetary level as I didn’t want to get into my head, I just wanted to be in it.

However, what’s occurring tonight and over the next few weeks, that information found me and I trust it was all in Divine timing. So, while I’m sleepy as my gut is charging up to a whole new level of health, my spirit is also charging up to a whole new level of awakening as I enter these energetic uploads. Here’s what we have on the agenda:

🌕 Tonight: Aquarian Mother Moon/Partial Lunar Eclipse
💥 Tomorrow: Lion’s Gate Portal
🌑 Aug 21: A Leo Crone Moon/Solar Eclpise

👆Now, there’s a lot more intricacies to what’s happening astrologically (ahem, 5 planets going retrograde!) at this time as well, to best understand the energies swirling around us I highly suggest starting with this video from Astrologer Coach Sonja Francis and then following her other writings as she is much more versed in the ins and outs of that astrological map on a microcosmic scope than I am: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmX_Hm2mhXg&feature=youtu.be

Powerful Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius, August 2017
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In the meantime, that trinity of energy potency above is the big whammy of what’s going on, and for some of us, myself included, the physical vessel gets a bit sleepy as our consciousness expands to receive these energy downloads.

Tonight we have the Aquarian Mother Moon, as I’ve mentioned in many previous Mother Moon posts, the Mother Moon, aka the Full Moon, is a time when we are emotionally full and our Lunar energy is at it’s peak. The Mother Moon parallels the Mother phase of our lives, the time of life when we are called to tend to our children, our actual babies and our physical, artistic, animal and career children, it is the phase of life when we are called to be nurturers and we must strike a balance between filling ourselves up so that we can give more of ourselves. Every month there are different aspects of self that the Moon reflects down upon us to balance. This month we are balancing the Aquarian/Leo polarities, the aspect of serving humanity and serving our human.

One of the great ways that this energy is presenting itself to me right now is in looking at my parenting on a very personal scale. When I birthed my first daughter I was instantly rocketed into a new dimension of love, one I had never known existed. From a very primal place I began to give of my all to her, as she grew and our family expanded to welcome in another little Maiden I had a hard time adjusting to sharing that devotion with two children. For the first few weeks, I did what I did with my eldest, Gracious, and breastfed constantly and kept baby Estrella skin to skin, but my magic love bubble wasn’t there, I was in knots. I longed to be giving my all to Gracious and then when Daddy took Estrella and I was with Gracious I was torn with a need to be with my newborn, it was hellish for me those first weeks, I had heard everybody tell me that when a second child comes your love just doubles, and while I loved both of my daughters, I felt completely torn in half. Once my husband was back at work and it was the three of us getting into our groove the love bubble came. Watching Gracious and Estrella form a sisterly bond, and having long hours of just the three of us gave me that sense of fulfillment once again, both of my girls were getting my all, and as an intense Scorpio that’s a lot of all. Now that I have become comfortable in our groove I have some truths coming to the surface to be examined.

The first is that I have been having a lot of readings, articles and discussions coming my way about being in one’s passion and making room for one’s calling to be actualized in their life experience. I was getting quite comfortable in the knowledge that I got to slow down on pursuing outside interests and focus on my family as I had only had a second baby almost five months ago now, and while that is true, for whatever reason I am ready to be giving more to my calling outside of motherhood without letting up on my mothering. There’s been some resistance to that, I have had a tendency to get quite ambitious and I don’t like the feeling of pushing against the flow with an intended goal in mind. So, I have been breathing into that resistance, coming back to the moment and getting honest with myself. When pockets of time open up how am I spending them? I don’t always need a good book or show to recharge my battery when the girls go out with my husband, a lot of days I am good to write, plan out a gathering or offer up a reading or two.

Beyond my resistance that truth has highlighted what the Aquarian aspect of this Mother Moon is revealing to me, and that is that I am not to give only to my children in a mothering way I am to continue being a mother to the world at large. From the moment I was a tiny Maiden I have been drawn to those younger than me, those struggling, in need or seeking, if there was a way that I could nurture or serve I was there. When I became pregnant with Gracious learning to give less and fill myself was a very hard and sad transition for me, after I had her I regretted when I had to say no, yet I felt in my bones how very much my family needed me to put them first. That was the Leo half of the lesson that I had to learn, and I have learnt it, now for the Aquarian. While my energy goes first to my family, what is left over goes to my community and to humanity, if I need to refuel, yes of course I stop and tend to that need, but I must be honest with myself and when I am capable of giving, of adding to the upliftment of our species, in whatever way I am called I must answer that call. That’s what the Aquarian Mother Moon is reminding me of tonight.

My personal moon is in Taurus and I can get into comfort ruts, ruts where I just want cozy blankets, yummy food and fantastic stories to escape into, and there is time for that when I need to refuel, but as my human vessel continues to strengthen and my spirit continues to awaken, the time that I need to refuel is becoming less and less. I must be honest with myself and when I can give from a genuinely full place, give, and I must find the balance between giving my girls my all because I was assigned the role of mother in their lives and not favouring them as my egotistical preference for service, it is easy to serve them because I love them so damn much, but sometimes I will be called to send them out with Daddy and give elsewhere.

I am also being reminded that I will not be able to accomplish any of this : discerning when to focus solely on family, when to fill myself and when to branch out in an active service role to humanity, without being present to the will of my Creator, I must go within and follow Her inner guidance as to how I am to serve and how I am to show up on a moment to moment basis. For today that looked like skipping a family outing with my beloved Aquarian mother-in-law who is visiting and told me in a very Aquarian altruistic manner to take advantage of her being down to get done what I need to, husband and Gracious to stay home to nap with Estrella and then to sneak out of that nap once I was rested to write this. In two weeks it looks like gathering the women of our community for the Crone Moon Solar Eclipse.

Estrella has just awoken so I will begin to sum up after touching on the energies that are on their way. The Lion’s Gate Portal that I would love to write on tomorrow but most likely won’t be able to, is a powerful 888 gateway that ushers in the potency of the number 8 which represents infinity. Higher Beings that serve this realm enter via that gateway and teach those of us that are open to receive their teachings, this gateway is guided by the Leo Lion energy and strengthens our solar plexus and inner will. This is a fiery gateway that I will be entering with tonight’s intentions fresh on my soul. In two weeks this energy will be followed by a Leo Crone Moon, the moon of releasing which is paired with a Solar Eclipse, a moment in time to face the ego’s shadow, Leo rules the ego and this will be a powerfully dark and strong moment in time to get very clear about an aspect of ego self that has held us back.

The lunar eclipse that is accompanying tonight’s moon is a time to pause when the Lunar light is her strongest and to look into the shadow realm of our emotional world. Aquarius’ shadow is being too detached from their emotions, tonight we will receive an opportunity to look at an aspect of our emotional world that we have used denial or aloofness or detachment in it’s lower vibration, to avoid. To be honest I don’t know what it is that I will find, right now it feels as though it will be linked to favouritism, to needing to become willing to commit to loving my daughters and husband as deeply as I do while committing to loving all of humanity that deeply and not reserving my heart for a few but giving it to the all.

That’s the bridge that I am walking right now, the middle road of love for self (Leo), love for humanity (Aquarius) and love for those that are in my personal circle, tribe (Leo), and love for the beings beyond this 3D Matrix (Aquarius) as I find the middle ground here I am sure that I will find my brightest space to shine my personal light of joy into the world and beyond, into the grand ethers.

How will you work with tonight’s Mother Moon and the lunar eclipse, how will the Aquarian aspects of tonight’s moon help you to tear down the social constructs that have helped you to define yourself into a box? I have been mired in identifying as a mother to Gracious and Estrella and lost focus of my role as a mother to the world, I’m ready to tear that construct down with the light of the Full Moon and I’m ready to peer behind the veil of the shadow cast upon my naked heart to see what it is that I am ready to face and step into, perhaps I will meet your brave souls behind the veil tonight in meditation and journeying, until then…..

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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Capricorn Mother Moon, finding the balance between calling and home.

The moon is full tonight, in Feminine Mysticism the full moon is known as the Mother Moon. This knowledge, that the full moon is the Mother, has been with me for some time now. I understand that the emotional energy is at it’s highest during this phase of the moon, that the astrological sign it falls under influences how we feel her energy, and that the Mother phase is full, in need of balance and very busy.

This knowledge seems to have dropped from my head and down into my heart in the last 24 hours. As my husband and I balanced getting our 3.5 year old to a fair, dressed to be a flower girl, to the wedding, pick up clothing orders, plan for meals, get work done, maintain the house and follow sleep cues for our four month old daughter, that corny saying that I’ve read in the mother boards began to echo in my head “the days are long but the years are short,” in the midst of the chaos, it dawned on me that life will not always be like this. One day our children will be grown up and life will not be this demanding and full, we might choose to keep it full or make unconscious choices that make it feel demanding, but it won’t be guaranteed, non stop full on like it is now. That’s where my new appreciation for the Mother Moon energies came from.

I got it, that fullness, that looniness, that need for balance when things are at their peak that the Mother phase of the Moon holds is what I am living right now. As I connected the energies of the Mother Moon and the Mother phase of life together I began to feel the Mother Moon looming in the skies as the moon turned full over the past 24 hours.

The Mother Moon is a Capricorn one this month, she is balancing out the energies of career/calling with home and family, just today I was explaining to my husband that right now and for the next while I am predominantly ‘mom’ and most of my other identities feel lost. Thankfully I know, having already raised a daughter for 3.5 years, that this will ease up as our baby continues to grow. With Gracious, my eldest, by 20 months I was feeling like myself, like a woman who had the role of Mother to play as one of many roles in life, rather than my life having been usurped by becoming a mom and having that role as my sole identity, as I once feared it would be when I first became a mother.

The moon rules our emotions, Capricorn is studious and down to earth, she is also the Matriarch of the zodiac, with Capricorn ruling this Mother Moon, I felt as if she was coming in to offer me perspective. As my eldest daughter ran around the house as if she were in a jungle and I contemplated ways to get her energy out while also napping the baby and wondered how I would ever get a moment to myself again a calm began to descend upon me.

“The days are long but the years are short,” it was as if the Capricorn moon was reminding me not to get caught up in the overwhelm of how much time and energy I was outputting to my tiny little fairies and reminding me that this is a phase, this is the main job for me right now but it is not the only job I have, nor is it the only one I will ever have, it is however the one that needs the most attention and energy right now. A very inspiring Capricorn woman for me, Patti Smith, writes about how when she had children she stopped performing all together, she stayed home to raise her family. Despite criticism from the feminist community at the time, she wanted to make that decision, she did get up at 5am every morning to write, but the rest of her hours were spent taking care of her family as if that were her career. It was only after the tragic death of her partner that she returned to performing and that was to make money to keep the family going.

That portrait of Patti Smith is the personification of the Capricorn/Cancer balance to me, (we are balancing opposite signs Cap and Cancer as Cap is ruling the moon right now and Cancer the sun). It is also the epitome of the strength of self that she had at that time, to be fully immersed in her family life, to be enjoying her creativity for her own artistic self and to be out of the spotlight, to not fear fading into oblivion during her mothering years, what a balance she must have had between her home and her calling, to have faith that she could go back to her calling as a performer when her children were older and to have faith that she could fully fall into her calling as mother as a career and be okay with that.

That is my focus this month, the amount of minutes that I have to put into my personal calling outside of motherhood is much less than it will ever be, and that is okay, there’s a purpose to me giving as much as I’m giving right now. I am the primary vessel for Source to care for these young bodies and old souls right now as they reintegrate back onto Earth, the writing, the circles, the readings, they will all be there whenever I am ready to pick them up, but these years, these years will never come again, this is my highest work right now.

I love feeling the introverted home maker Cancer Mother archetype when she is ruling the Sun, her energy is so strong and inspiring for me as I tend my home, and I love when the stern Capricorn comes into the light of the full moon and my desires to extend out of the home and into the community, another great role of the Capricorn Goddess, is lit up within my heart, the balance that comes feels reassuring and comforting.

As I walk out of the light of this moon, I am taking perspective with me, right sized-ness and a reminder that some of the roles that we play in life have specific timings and requirements to them and that that is okay. Whether I am in the busy Mother phase of my life or not, one thing that remains steady and unchanging is the top priority in my life, which is a conscious and unwavering relationship with the Source within me, as long as that is at the centre of my soul, all else is balanced around that white, hot beam of alignment with Source, and when I am aligned I can be at peace, being right where I am in the moment, regardless of how chaotic and busy it may be.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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Tonight on Priestess of Grace’s Facebook Page: Moon Mysteries, Libra Mother Moon

Taurus Mother Moon, opening my heart to blossom.

Super moon night, our Mother Moon appears larger and is closer to us than she has been in 69 years! This magnificent and exquisite creature is falling under the astrological sign of Taurus during the Scorpio season. Magic, magic, magic is afoot.

On a personal note, tonight is my lunar birthday, I was born under a big, beautiful Taurus Mother Moon, this moon position has interested me ever since my love for astrology began to bloom at the tender age of 17.

The Taurus Moon opposes my Scorpio Sun, the energies in the air tonight parallel the energetic make-up that I arrived here with.

Scorpio is known to be a mysterious sign, yet for me, it has always been Taurus that is the mystery. She is this great balance of luxury, comfort, sensuality, practicality, hard work and pragmatism. She blends such scrumptious qualities with such responsible ones, I just can’t quite wrap my head around her.

In Shamanic Astrology, the moon represents the tribe that we have spent lifetimes serving in, the place that we have perfected, it is comfortable and easy to fall back into our moon sign, however, we are meant to be walking towards our rising sign. The number one area that Taurus sways me is in her desire, need and for me sometimes manically so, for security.

The Taurus Goddess is represented by the great Mother Cow totem, she digs her feet in, gets comfortable and settles into her home base. She thrives on a stable, predictable, unchanging foundation from which she can live and grow. This desire for security, when planted in the emotional realm, which is the realm that the moon rules, can create a clinging, desperate desire to feel secure in order to feel safe and okay emotionally.

That is my number one challenge in this lifetime. I have larger than life dreams, deep and daunting area’s I am called to investigate, a romance that calls for me to break through the borders of certainty and live in the realm of the unknown, a vision for my family that requires a daily reliance on Grace, every aspect of my soul and my spirit calls for me to be unfettered, fearless and free, and yet, that Taurus moon of mine seeps into my experience so often and I become distracted by an emotional desire for perfect safety and security, something that only exists in Grace, but that my human wants to experience in concrete, undeniable, earthly proof.

When the moon is as large and as bright as it is today, it is calling for all of us to receive emotional downloads that are in greater proportion than that which has been downloaded before. Tonight’s download is calling for all of us to step out of our comfort zones, to stop giving our energy to earthly security and safety, to turn our focus away from fear and anything that threatens to disrupt our peace, especially threats that seem to exists in the world of form.

The true essence of the Taurus Goddess Archetype is the Goddess of birth, generation, life and blossoming, when you and I can live in the truth of life and extension, there is nothing in the realm of form that can threaten it, because life is supported by the Creator, it is sustained by the Creator and continues to exist from this realm into the next within the arms of the Creator.

In North America there has been a great upset over the state of the nation in the past week, there has been a lot of fear and a lot of influence given to a handful of people, and from a practical point of view this makes sense. Practically things seem tenuous, but when Taurus is balanced by her opposing sign of Scorpio, she is reminded that there is always a deeper meaning, always a deeper truth and always a call for transformation and transmutation.

Scorpio sun is with us right now to transform and transmute, and the Taurus Mother Super Moon is shining her lunar beams of illumination down upon us right now to reveal to us all that is growing in light and truth, all of our emotional seeds that are growing and blossoming, as well as any blockages to our life force, our life path and our highest calling.

The Mother Moon is a balancing Moon, tonight I am balancing my need for security in this realm with a need to be securely rooted in the Mother. I am balancing my human impulse to birth and create with the part of me that holds on and is afraid to step out into the unknown.

The Taurus Mother is asking for all of us to let go of our need for security and comfort and to step into knowing, to be in our primal and instinctual selves that just know, we just know how to create life, we just know how to blossom, we just know how to thrive and there is nothing and no-one that can impede that unless we make an agreement, consciously or unconsciously to allow them to.

So it is, that tonight, I call upon the blessing of the fresh and romantic Taurus Goddess Archetype and ask that her lunar beams sow the seeds of her blessings deep within my heart, that I may be moved to blossom and to enjoy the fruits of life deep within my heart. I am asking for the Scorpio Goddess Archetype which is ruling the sun at this time to destroy the shadow aspects of Taurus that are coming to light for me tonight, the desperate want for security and safety from the world of form, the temptation to stay in my comfort zone, the excuses to sink into laziness rather than into the spark of creation that is ever lit within me.

My prayer for our world is that this moon will illuminate all of our hearts, that we will all be called to step out of the comfort zones that keep us blocking the full forces of our heart’s offering to the world and that we will continue to birth the new world that has been arising and coming to light.

Blessed bright lunar dreams to all of you sisters and brothers.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly };{

Today on Priestess of Grace’s Facebook Page, Moon Mysteries: Pisces Mother Moon

Sagittarius Mother Moon, lunar beams of hope raising me up.

Tonight’s Mother Moon is a blue moon, the second full moon in one month. This month has been insanely intense for me, the fact that five planets have been retrograde has not made this pressure cooker of a month feel any easier.

I have been dreading tonight’s moon, and in my dreading has come an avoidance to writing tonight. Because of this avoidance I have been reading old posts of mine about Sagittarius Mother Moon’s. On my Priestess of Grace Facebook page I found that the majority of Sagittarius Mother Moon’s I have written about have been big one’s, they have been super moons and moons ending eclipses or moons on Friday the 13th. I also discovered that last year’s Sagittarius Mother Moon was also full during a Mercury Retrograde, it was also not an easy one for me.

What I found interesting when I read last year’s blog post about the Sagittarius Mother Moon was remembering what a tough time that moon was for me, and yet, in retrospect I have found memories of that time. The unknown, living with my parents, the quiet spring days that felt so long are now warm memories of a time when we were all close as a family and awaiting what would be. What a profound and cliched truth that the times when we struggle become the ones we remember with fondness, once we are through them.

I don’t know if that will be the case with this time in my life however.

I have been dreading tonight’s moon because it is a Sagittarius Mother Moon. Normally I don’t look forward to Sagittarius energies, as it is one of my least favourite energies, however, I had conceived a Sag-to-be. While I was pregnant with my little archer I began to appreciate this energy, as I contemplated how I would mother a Sagittarius and how young Sagittarius energy would influence our family dynamic all of the most shining qualities of Sagittarius began to rise up in my consciousness. I felt the little archer influencing my energy as it grew in my womb.

I actually became excited to be around Sagittarius energy.

I was excited.

And then I miscarried. A big, messy, bloody, almost pass out and end in surgery miscarriage.

I new this moon was coming and I was not looking forward to it, in fact we will have two Sagittarius Mother Moon’s this year and the idea of big emotional Sagittarius energy made me fear what would come up for me. Where is my lesson in all of this?

As if loosing my baby wasn’t hard enough for us as a family, less than two weeks later my father-in-law passed away. That’s one baby and one father that my husband lost within a two week period. At this point I was expecting us all to just sink down into a dark abyss of despair, a heavy, sinking swamp of grief for our family to wade through.

Somehow, unexpectedly, I feel brighter than ever, and my husband that has been struggling immensely, which has meant large struggles within our marriage, with his father’s cancer, seems softer and more grounded than ever. I attribute this to a few factors, first grace, big grace to carry us through this time, and next love, our marriage came to a breaking point of grief and we decided we had to find lightness and love with each other despite our circumstances, and lastly, the spirit of my Sagittarius baby and my father-in-law.

I truly feel as though that Sagittarius spirit-to-be, the sign of optimism and good luck is with me now, I feel that little being beside me like a cherub angel and I feel as though the pureness of that being blesses me and is infusing me with optimism and hope, two things that are very foreign to my nature.

I also feel as though my father-in-law is guiding my husband through this time and his gentle spirit is tending to my husband’s heart.

Sagittarius Mother Moon’s are all about emotional optimism and emotional adventures. I have been just so stressed and sad these past months and after my husband and I hit our breaking point I began to reach up spiritually, I needed to be lightened and to get back into the vortex, I could not live in the realm of circumstances because the circumstances just continued to get worse and worse.

I found an Abraham Hick’s prosperity process, it involves spending energetic money, $1,000 the first day $2,000 the next and so on, you write cheques and decide what you will spend your energetic money on. The first day I ‘bought’ more groceries, herbal products and some more items I had been needing but waiting on due to our budget. The second day I got stuck after ‘spending’ $800, that was eye opening to me, I didn’t know how to spend dream money. I didn’t know how to dream about what I wanted for the joy of it, I realized I spend my time dreaming about what I want in the needs department and the ministry department but not so much in the fun and wants department. As I began to expand my dreams and to get into the ‘spending’ all of a sudden new money began to appear, money that I wanted deposited into our savings account, I always want extra money in the savings account. It dawned on me, if we had extra money that flowed into our life, we could take a small portion for us as a family, just as ‘fun’ money, I suggested this to my husband and he agreed, for the first time in years I began to feel excited and happy about money and not at all stressed about spending it.The next day, I realized that we had even more extra money, more to deposit into savings and more to take a portion for some fun.

This energy of flow and prosperity and enjoying the prosperity and being ‘lucky’ (I don’t believe in luck but it’s the Sagittarius term) reminds me about the bright side of Sagittarius. I’ve had many Sagittarius men in my life and now this baby and these moons, so much Sagittarius energy, energy that was my least favourite for a very long time, energy that I resisted up until this baby, energy that I probably always would have resisted if not for this baby. I feel blessed by the archer now and I feel blessed to have an archer spirit by my side, my ‘good luck’ spirit.

Tonight, as the moon shines full of optimism and hope I open my heart up, willing and ready to feel the pain, and exceptionally surprised to find that there is joy, light and hope that is shining through. The moon rules the emotions and the emotional realm is our guidance system, it tells us whether we are in alignment with Source energy or not. A positive and uplifting Sagittarius Mother Moon gives us all the opportunity to walk through our darker emotions and step into the light of the vortex

As you open yourself and your heart up to the archer moon tonight you may find that some of this adventurous, unfiltered, lucky energy enlivens your emotional world and begins to create experiences beyond your wildest dreams, that’s the goal I have set my sites on for tonight, a life that is beyond my dreams, a life that is guided and directed by my full and beautiful emotional guidance system.

This is a complete turn about for my soul, once upon a time, 13 years ago, I discovered that I had a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body that could only be overcome by obtaining hope. I was crushed, I shared with my tribe that hope was something I would not tolerate, I wound’t, couldn’t risk opening myself up to hope and being let down, I had been too crushed by life, too traumatized and betrayed. 13 years later and in the face of a devastating two weeks I find myself buoyed and carried on the wings of hope and this hope that I find comfort and validation in only leads to more hope as I witness true change and evolution within my soul’s evolution on this earth plane.

Tonight I am soaking up this hope and beaming it out into the world from my open and full heart, I wish that all of you will ride these lunar beams of hope into newer expressions of life and dreaming and love as we continue to evolve and grow together on the wings of hope’s light.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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Scorpio Mother Moon, transforming earthly attachments into grace.

The moon is full, ripe and witchy as hell tonight. This is a mother moon, all full moon’s are mother moon’s and this month the mother moon is ruled by the deep, esoteric, taboo busting, secretive, dark seeking Scorpio.

A Scorpio mother is a fiercely loyal and devoted mother, she dives deeply into the souls of her children and focuses on transforming all that is not in alignment with their highest good and producing whole, magical, powerful beings to go out into the world. That is what tonight’s moon promises to do for us tonight, to transform our hearts and our feminine selves into radiant powerful beings at their best.

This deeply, heavy mother moon comes busting into the sky right after the sun cycles under the pleasure seeking, romantic, serene, earthy sign of Taurus. Just when we get ready to relax, to take it slow and to enjoy the comforts of this realm for a while now that spring is fully sprung, her opposite sign comes into the night sky and illuminates our emotional bodies, calling us to transform, to dive deep and to face any shadowy aspects within ourselves that need to be transmuted into light and wholeness.

Astrologer Coach Sonja Francis hit the nail on the head for me this month with her full moon youtube post, I was all the happier to find out that I could email her to receive a copy of all of her full moon questions, questions that will be relevant for the next two weeks, you can listen to her video here: https://youtu.be/L5O4PHPcZzU

The part that resonated with most with me in Sonja’s video was when she discussed how the opposing signs of Scorpio and Taurus complete each other. My sun sign is in Scorpio and my Moon is in Taurus, so I walk with the lesson of balancing these opposing signs, I experience them opposite of how they are appearing today, so that’s a lot of balance for me.

The big lesson I’m taking with this opposition, is transforming attachment to security and uncovering one’s passion. This rang so true for me. For years I was all passion, if I wasn’t passionate about it I didn’t do it. I fell in love passionately, I made art passionately, I read passionately. I had very little attachment to security because I was all longing.

When I began walking the path of grace, I was astonished and overwhelmed by how blessed I became, grace brought my desires to fruition, I found passionate love, passionate space to express my art and my service as a Priestess. I became a mother, mothering became a new passion of mine, a whole new level of fulfillment and devotion sprung up within me. All that I was passionate became fulfilled and all that I had been passionate about had to do with my true heart’s desire, my heart is ruled by Taurus. Each time my heart was fulfilled the Taurus energy of my heart was lit and life became romantic, sensual, comforting and pretty, as the energy of my heart increased some of that Taurus energy began to go to the extreme until the subject of security began to blaze within my heart so brightly that I became overly attached to earthly security and comfort.

I didn’t want to loose my clients, my husband, my daughter, I wanted us to be comfortable, to not struggle to have a steady flow of ever increasing abundance coming in. Suddenly I was earth bound, focused on the comforts that this realm could offer us as a family, if only we could get our piece of the pie and get a big enough slice. The days of living by grace, of surrender, of flowing and diving deep to transform the fears that tempted me to act out were long behind me as I began to act on fears and grasp for life to stop spinning and to just stay still, to blanket my family in comfort, certainty, abundance and simplicity.

Some of these desires were passions and they were good, we took steps to simplify our life, to slow down and to spend more time together as a family. As grace unfolded opportunities for this, I watched amazed as we were provided for every step of the way. But, but, but….that nagging Taurus moon of mine, I wanted more, more assurance that the grace wasn’t going to run out, more numbers in the bank account, more working hours for my husband, and this insatiable appetite was born. When I slowed down to ask myself what it was all for, what the purpose of the striving and the control was for the answer was chillingly insane. I wanted more security, money and work so that I could have more peace, simplicity and time with family, things that I already had, it was as if I thought I had to maintain the grace, I had to ensure it didn’t run out, rather than enjoying the life that I was being afforded I was doing everything to create the opposite of what I had, which was what I wanted, so that I wouldn’t loose what I had, but it was my fear based acting that was erasing what I had!

All of this came to a head as the moon became full in the sky. I was relieved to learn that we had a Scorpio Mother Moon with us tonight, it gave me hope that the intensity of this loop I’ve been caught in was the moon calling upon my Scorpio soul to do some transformative work.

This month on the blog in the Journey with the Crystals section, the crystal we are working with is Dioptase, a crystal of the heart. I’ve been contemplating living from my heart, my Taurus heart, and how this would look. Ever since our move a year ago we have been getting rooted, settled and I have not been myself fully, I have been so much in the Taurus shadow. But what would it look like to live from a full and sweet elevated Taurus heart?

My husband just began his season back at work and that very same week was called away to attend to a family emergency 12 hours away. This was an opportunity to act from the heart and not from fear, to support him to go and to be with his family and to turn over the finances to grace. I would say I got a C+ on how we walked through this together. A few days earlier my spiritual advisor had advised me to get clear about my fears around security and finances and to make sure that I find a way to ensure that they not be attached to my husband’s earnings, “because he’s not going to be fully back into steady work until you’ve worked through this.” “Sure, sure,” I thought as he got the call to go back to work two days after that talk, and then three days later called away to attend family business. Seems she was right, there will be no steady stream until I get rid of the notion that my supply comes from him, rather than from grace.

So here I sit, contemplating grace, contemplating what lies beyond the human realm of finances, remembering what it was like to allow grace to unfold my journey and how she fulfilled all of my needs and never debted me or made my life drabby or unpleasant. I’m at the precipice , prepared to jump back into the capable hands of grace, except this time when I jump, it’s with a toddler in my arms and a babe in my womb, I’m jumping into grace with my children and I’m taking a leap into faith that grace will provide for me as a mother, that grace will mother through me and that grace will provide for my family.

I am spent. I am exhausted from trying to “arrange life to suit my needs,” as the text in the Big Book writes, I am done looking to my husband to be a God and ready to walk as conscious equal partners with him out into the mystery. I am ready to live from my soul’s Scorpio purpose and to be balanced by the romantic, sweet, pleasurable nature of my heart.

I give up, you take it Mother. I am yours. I am ready to walk as You dictate I walk, I am ready to surrender, I am ready to be mothered and to have You mother through me. Thank You for Your blessings, and thank You for maintaining them without my help. I am Your child, I remember now, I don’t need to do it all. Thank You for this journey.

What would it look like if we all returned to the Mother tonight, if we all trusted that She knew best and if we just surrendered to Her and allowed Her to work Her magic though us? Because She will if we invite Her, She will if we will allow Her. Let’s journey together tonight and walk under the light of Her moon and give our lives back to Her, shall we?

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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