What a light Winter Solstice this has been for me so far. On the shortest day of the year and the darkest night of the year I feel light of spirit, present and full of gratitude. For this dark and broody Scorpio with an often security obsessed Taurus moon, feeling light, present and full of gratitude is not just a platitude to glibly throw around during this festive season. For me, these experiences are a complete transmutation from the state that I have come to identify as self into this new experience of self.
While my ancestors feared the length of the dark and the chill of the cold that this season brought, I feel supported and safe within the walls of our cozy home and surrounded by the vast whiteness that covers our ground. My husband is home for the season and rather than worry about finances like I did all of the previous Winter season, I am soaking up this family time, extra support and slowing down of the year.
This solstice, I’ve been reflecting on how our ancestors faced the fear of the dark, for them this was not a purely metaphoric or symbolic day, it was a very real threat to their livelihood the lack of light and warmth, and when faced with the threat of physical extinction or harm from the elements of this season they created ceremonies, rituals, festivals and reasons to celebrate and gather. They came together, they celebrated the light before it had actually returned, they prayed and danced and lived as if they had all that they desired.
How different our society is today, we are blessed with comforts in the first world countries and yet we are often so isolated, separate and alone in our pain. What would it be like if my instinctual reaction to fear was to gather closer to my community, if I could dance and celebrate the arrival of what I needed before it’s manifested appearance showed forth? What would it be like to be so in the moment that I celebrated life in the lack of the certainty of light, within the dark of the mystery and just revelled in the blessings of what was in that very moment.
It’s so easy to isolate but also to disassociate, there’s Netflix, white sugar, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, downy beds, iPhones, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat for the more social media hip than me, dating sites, online games and on and on the list goes, a virtual overload of ways to get lost in cyber land, chemically induced states of joy or relaxation, flat screened images of people’s best face on a menu ready to be ordered up, there’s more than enough resources to numb our pain at any given moment. We don’t need to feel and we don’t need one another, or so the great illusion tells us, it is so much ‘easier’ in the moment to just get lost in the matrix of distraction.
I don’t know how or why I feel so much more present lately than I have before, whenever a new state dawns on me I assume it’s a tipping point, some bit of work I’ve been walking towards internally for days, weeks, months or years has finally accumulated enough of a vibrational punch to shift me into a new reality. I am experiencing the blessings of presence that I have read so much about and I don’t desire to escape my life, my ups and my downs, I want to be with it all. I don’t feel the need to do any great and sweeping social media cleanse, I just feel more of a pull towards others, towards life that I can touch and feel rather than witness from behind a screen. The temptation to be lost in a realm of distraction has lessened and I suspect it is because life is feeling better than fantasy. While I still process a lot in a solitary way, this doesn’t feel synonymous with isolation to me, Capricorn has come to guide us into the Winter season and Capricorn is the prefect example of a solitary creature that is forever linked to their tribe.
Capricorn, which happens to rule my Feminine self, processes much internally in a solo way, and yet is the matriarch of their community, impelled to gather, share and to guide, she is a perfect example of grounded, thoughtful, connected ancestral presence. Capricorn reminds us to listen and follow the examples of our ancestors and focuses us on how we can give to the next seven generations.
For tonight my focus is on how I can give to the next seven generations in my lineage by being a fully present and participatory member of joy and peace within my family unit. When we moved back to this tiny town a year and a half ago I was hoping for community, slowly that has been building for me here. I have found our first spiritual centre in the area and have been teaching and offering readings, this is the other community that I am committed to offering my presence and joy to, my spiritual tribe, the people of my land, each act of service creates a ripple that extends into the far reaches of our cosmos and I get to be a part of that, what a blessing. Of course I will continue to be mindful of how I affect society as a whole, my two places of intention and focus for this next season will be within my family unit and my spiritual community and I trust that as I flourish in these area’s my presence will be a part of blessing the world around me.
I am closing out this year, and entering into the stillness of the Winter season with the intention to honour the impact of my presence on Earth, in what I say, what I do and how I be in this world, I am committed to not minimizing the importance of my presence here at this time and to also not inflating my ego’s need to create large and splashing expressions in order to feel validated about my importance in the world. I don’t need to fly in as super woman and save any one or lead any cause, I do however need to live from the integrity of my open heart, to offer my joy and my attention and to be mindful of how my vibration has the ability to uplift or to contribute to the density of the third dimensional reality, and that is enough for me. Knowing that I can influence the cosmos by uplifting is enough for this Priestess to feel content settling in for a long hibernation, a still season of self-growth, rejuvenation, enjoyment, peace and surrender.
I hope that each one of you too, find a blessing within the darkness of the Great Mother on tonight’s long journey into the mystery and I hope that this blessing is enough to carry you through the quiet of the Winter months with a sense of peace, groundedness and confidence in your purpose and place here on Mother Gaia. May we all be uplifters and may we all fall into the joy of the present moment, whether it be one that appears dark and cold or full of warmth and light, for as we learn on this transitional day, all appearances shift and change, while what is real and true remains steady and true despite the seasons of our life.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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