The Aries Crone Moon is a contradictory one, this moon phase is ruled by the Crone archetype, the wise old Grandmother archetype and is under the influence of the baby of the zodiac, Aries, the youngest Maiden sign we have.
Aries is the initiator and the Crone is the destroyer. Tonight’s Crone Moon promises to both destroy and initiate.
I think of this moon as the beginning of a new 13 cycle moon cycle.
The moon rules the emotions and I have been looking to see how this intense and fearless spring energy of Aries is affecting my emotional realm. The Crone is comfortable to me, as a Scorpio the energy of destruction is familiar and the introverted darkness of a Crone moon feels safe and cozy, whereas the blazing bright burst of Aries fire that calls in the Springtime and begins our new moon cycle of the year feels jarring and gets me antsy and my emotions have been reflecting this.
This year I am encountering the Aries Crone Moon right in the midst of an intense 40 day lie in post partum period. I have my newest little Maiden at home, not yet three weeks old and my older 3.5 year old powerful Maiden bouncing all over the house as I rest (thank Goddess the husband is home for the next month) and slowly heal not only my physical wounds from a second c-section, but also my emotional and psychological wounds after a traumatizing first week of my daughter’s life. (An hour after birthing her she was rushed to the NICU and it was a week of darkness and terror as I prayed and hoped for her to be released and to come home with us as I waited to see if her tiny little body would strengthen and thrive.)
My daughter’s challenge was foretold to me through a teacher of mine that offered a Spirit Reading before her birth, the spirits called it a ‘hiccup’ and assured me that it would clear up in a week’s time and sure enough everything that was channeled came true.
Now, it’s happily ever after…..except, this is life and when the intense relief and joy began to level out and life as I know it began to take on what is becoming a new rhythm in the house, the rest of the emotional gamete of life post partum has begun to unfold.
The intensity of the Aries Sun, the brightness of longer days and now the emotional influence of Aries in the Crone moon is making my ‘peaceful’ 40 day lie in quite a bit more difficult than it was the first time. I want to be up and about, yet I want my daughter having the time to adjust to the world and to receive the same long lengths of skin to skin and nursing and quiet that my first did. The wonderful spike of estrogen that I received as my milk came in, paired with the long stretches of gassy burping and soothing in the middle of the night that my newborn requires, has made for a much more emotionally quick responding and harsher toned Mama than I like to be with my 3.5 year old, who has been immensely patient throughout my difficult pregnancy and the intense week of her sister’s first week of life and all in all the 40 day lie in has been more of a challenge to sit and be with what is than it was with my first daughter who I just kinda sunk into baby bliss with.
I observe my reactions and from an observatory perspective marvel that my ideals are falling so short of what is being expressed through me.
I feel this contradictory wise Crone energy and young Aries energy in my intentions. I am working out a late night/early morning spiritual routine to see me through the long stretches of newborn gassiness, a way to tap into something internal and powerful as I loose the amount of sleep I have become accustomed to, (my first and I slept so much!). This is one intention I have, and yet the emotional velocity of intense feelings surrounding the impatience I experience with the long spells at night, the snappiness I have in response to the yelling of my 3.5 year old during the day and the intense fears that come up surrounding my healing and potentially being hospitalized again (a bit of ptsd from the birth and a long medical challenge as a child), has what and how I’m feeling at opposing ends of what and how I am intending spiritually.
As these energies come to a head tonight I am working to honour what I feel, while slowing down the expression and taking time to contain and digest my emotions as they rise to the surface. I am also intending to utilize the fearless and ambitious nature of the Aries archetype to take a great leap into deepening my spiritual practices to see me through this fourth trimester and to raise me to the top of this new challenge victorious and brighter than ever.
I release the charge that the emotional realm has held over me and I turn my attention towards strengthening my spirit. I release my attachment to the old way and embrace the newness that the reborn Aries archetype welcomes in, opening to a new experience as a family, a mother and a woman of the great Allness as I learn how to give the soul of my newborn exactly what she needs, how she needs it while still showing up for my family and myself in the process.
For tonight, I dance between the wisdom of the Crone and the innocence of the Maiden.
How are these energies affecting you? What are your intentions for this Aries Crone Moon?
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
This month’s Crone Moon is a fiery one, it’s an Aries Crone Moon and I can feel the difference between this month’s Crone and last month’s easily.
Last month the Pisces Crone Moon was an ending of sorts for me, Pisces is the final sign of the zodiac and the dreamy, enlightened sign in the wise grandmother Crone Moon closed out the past years moons. I didn’t realize it at the time but a big layer of myself was being shed last month, and with this month’s Aries Crone I feel quickened, it is a lightening sort of release, one that feels Kali like, fast, sharp, to the point and productive.
The Crone aspect of the Moon empties us out, she pulls on the emotional tides within us and pulls us clean from all that we are willing to release. Aries is the youngest sign of the zodiac, the Maiden sign, this merging of the Maiden fire with Crone water creates a warmth, a boiling within.
I sensed this moon coming before I was aware that another Crone Moon was about to occur. My good friend Bliss Prema is in the process of writing her memoirs, during this time she was interviewed about the soul’s purpose, I watched this interview a few days ago, you can find it here : https://www.facebook.com/PriestessofGrace/photos/a.165236053576018.25096.125352237564400/353716594727962/?type=1&theater, and was inspired by the concepts of many soul purposes that Bliss shared about. As I contemplated these different purposes in my life I recalled when I had undergone past life regressions, at the end of each lifetime that I visited the hypnotherapist would ask me if I had completed my soul’s purpose in that lifetime and then she would ask me what it was. When we arrived at my current lifetime she asked my Higher Self what my soul’s purpose was in this lifetime, the response was that I was to learn how to enjoy life, to strive less, I had had plenty of lifetimes of great success, or diligent pursuits of accomplishment, I had even enjoyed being in positions of fame, this was a lifetime to just be in the experience. Rather than write about life I was to live it, the song is written about you not by you was the message that I received.
I contemplated how well I’ve lived this purpose, during some cycles of my life I have done quite well. When I met my husband I was just in the love, just allowing our love to blossom, our twin souls to reacquaint themselves. When I gave birth to my daughter I spent 40 days inside, bonding with her, stationary for the most part on the couch, just nursing her and drinking her in. I have had moments where I refuse to create unless the act to create is so strong that it moves through me. I have been so committed to the path of grace that I simply participate in what I am led to without thinking about what it means, where the particular activity will take me or get me. These are the moments when I have felt most at peace, most at-one with the Universe.
I have also had great, painful, soul wrenching moments in my life where I diligently discipline myself to sit down and create, to produce something, everyday. Where I force myself to work out, where I take any moments of quiet to study, to meditate, to do yoga, to pray…all worthwhile and beneficial acts, yet when I am in a state of forcing it is counterproductive because the foundation of my actions is coming from a place of compulsive ambition. If I am not productive, if I am not actively contributing to my body, emotions, mind or spirit I feel as though I cannot justify my existence. If there isn’t a chance that I can create something that will be ‘known’, if I don’t become somebody that is famous, or wildly successful, or deeply enlightened, then I am failing at life. I become mediocre. I become the same. I become unremarkable. All of the inspiration, the greatness and the splendour of the Universe that I feel welling up within me is wasted. I become a waste. A waste of skin, of space, a waste of life. What a heavy and awful burden to carry around.
I messaged Bliss and we discussed my past life regression, as we spoke and Bliss’ perpetual optimism and enthusiasm inspired me to re-examine my soul’s purpose I made a renewal of commitment to myself. If it isn’t coming from a place of joy, I’m not doing it. If it is something that needs to be done, one of life’s chores I will endeavour to perform the task with as much mindfulness and joy as I can. But what I choose to do, the life choices that I make will be based upon that which brings me joy, that which inspires me, uplifts me and that which is fun! I have such a serious Scorpio nature that life gets very heavy, very deep very easily for me. My soul’s purpose is to learn how to enjoy this life experience. What brings me joy is so much simpler than what I envision somebody with my soul’s purpose looking like. I’m not a sky diver, or a world traveller, or a deep sea diver. I enjoy being at home, I enjoy writing, I enjoy meditation, I enjoy time with my girlfriends, thought inspiring, silly shows, I enjoy nature, quiet, calm, music, art and inspiring people. I enjoy sweetness and lightness.
The initiative fire of the Aries Crone Moon has come to release me from the self-imposed prison that I create with my rules, regulations and discipline. I release my self-will and open up to the Universe, I surrender to joy and to flow, to receiving the will of the Goddess and to enjoying every inch of my journey, as Bliss reflected back to me ” it will obviously evolve, once you really surrender into it. It will always expand because that is the very nature of Spirit!!!”
Blessed Aries Crone Moon to you, release and let go and allow the inspired Aries energy to quicken your path.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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