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May : Lepidolite

“At this time in your life feelings are being united with your thoughts. If you stay true to your feelings, everything will follow its true path, allowing the manifestation of your goals.” Liquid Crystal Oracle.

This part of the Lepidolite lesson reminds me so much of the Abraham Hicks work that I do. I love Abraham Hicks, a group of spirits that are channeled by Esther Hicks and oh so easily accessible over YouTube. I love their message because it is all about feeling our way back into the Vortex, a lot of people utilize their message to manifest the things they want in their life. For myself, I do not work with manifestation, I work with grace, grace has always been the path that fulfills me. Utilizing the Abraham Hicks teachings to get back into the Vortex, is another way of saying getting back into the flow of grace for me.

Other tools that have been popular in the metaphysical world (I’m not a metaphysics girl but rather a mystic one) have focused on controlling the thoughts in one way or another, that path has never served me. With Abraham Hicks the focus is on the feelings and when the thoughts come into play it is about finding better feeling thoughts, this totally works for me.

Staying true to my feelings means committing to good feeling thoughts and also allowing room for my authentic experience to come to the surface and to be walked through.

This morning, during the morning meditations with my toddler daughter, I held onto my piece of lepidolite and felt myself infused with fairy like light, it was light, playful, electric and exhilarating, I was so encouraged. The Abraham Hicks talks I’ve been listening to lately have been talking about getting onto a “high flying disc” first thing in the morning, according to them the morning is the easiest time to get into the Vortex and carve out a happy day.

Personally the mornings rarely feel like high flying disc moments to me, no matter how good my sleep or how well I felt the night before, mornings are hazy for me, I am a morning person, I just feel like my soul is heavy in the morning, by nighttime I can spend hours before bed getting on a high flying disc. I’m not too interested in analyzing the why of this, I decided that I was going to try to get onto a high flying disc this morning and I was able to, and it really has followed me throughout the day.

I was reflecting on the lesson I had learnt the other month about controlling my emotions and how I’ve realized that doesn’t mean I am ignoring or repressing my emotions, but rather that I am empowered to direct their flow. Lepidolite is helping me to do this in a light and happy manner. I am looking forward to the rest of this month and exploring how these teachings will direct me towards happier days, even in the midst of my grieving process.

How is Lepidolite speaking to you this month?

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly ✨

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May : Lepidolite

Lepidolite is all about feeling your feelings.

I have been feeling some feelings, some very real feelings this month.

Scorpio’s process their feelings deeply and internally, it takes a lot to get me to express any emotion that is outside of the range of anger (patience is not my strong suit) or happiness (joy and the such is also restrained and kept within myself , a joyful little private blanket). We Scorpio’s feel deeply but privately, unlike Cancer’s whose emotions are a totally mystery as they wall them up within their crab shell, our emotions are mysterious in that they are expressed so subtly, however they just emanate off of us, like this deep vibrating power wand of emoting and so it is apparent that something is going on beneath the surface, but just what it is is a mystery to most.

These feelings that I”m feeling have been beyond the general realm of my Scorpio feelings. They are steeped in trauma, they are drenched in grief, and they are cloaked in powerlessness.

Dioptase, our crystal for last month, opened our hearts and I had a happy little secret, I was pregnant.

I was pregnant.

I miscarried, the miscarriage began on Mother’s Day, such a bitter way to spend Mother’s Day, such an untraditional way to spend Mother’s Day, in the ER asking for confirmation that I was indeed loosing my child.

I have a wealth of writing to do around that subject, my miscarriage is not the topic of this Crystal post. How I’m feeling my feelings is.

I’ve been walking dizzily around as I wait for the copious amounts of blood that I lost to replenish within my body in a shocked haze. Of course this week would just happen to be the busiest of week’s for my husband, long work hours during the day and his play is being performed all week in the evening which means full days and nights of caring for a toddler and having very little time to myself. Long days with my 2 year old that still doesn’t know that she will not be a big sister this Christmas. In this dizzy haze I observed how detached I feel and I am aware that a large part of it is shock and lack of blood.

However, I have feelings that break through, most of them anger right now. Go figure, my go to emotion, anger at the friends that didn’t reach out that knew, angry at the friends that brushed off what happened in a nonn-chalant manner, anger at the people that weren’t understanding of my pregnancy when I was pregnant and knew and angry at a society that says we shouldn’t tell anyone that we are pregnant in our first trimester in case this happens. Angry that it is socially unacceptable to openly discuss miscarriage and that I feel ashamed and embarrassed to post this.

My husband went and found me a piece of lepidolite, I have been holding it and looking at the lilac crystals that glitter on the stone and bitterly reflecting on the purpose of this month’s crystal, to get me to feel. Deeper than my resistance to feel right now is an awareness that not feeling my feelings is a part of freezing trauma into my body and I don’t want to do that. So I sit with this beautiful crystal, in this beautiful month of birth and growth and I feel how empty my womb is now, how scared I feel within my body and how a part of our family has left us.

I am learning to feel the feelings in the moment that they are there. My daughter is a great barometer that allows me to witness how much feelings I’m allowing in. The more I resist her very open and often loud expression of her emotions, the more I know that I am in resistance to emotions altogether.

Tonight, I am focusing on honouring my daughter’s full expression of emotions, knowing that the more I honour her right to feel fully and don’t try to suppress or quiet her, the more I am able to offer that to myself. She is fussy, she is crying and screaming and I am holding her and repeating “Mommy’s here, you’re safe, Mommy’s here,” not trying to fix anything, just being there to hold her and allow her to feel. As I do this, I imagine that there is a Divine Mother doing the same for me, wrapping Her divine wings around me and letting me know that I am safe, that She is here and giving me the space to feel it all through.

Until next time,
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

April : Dioptase

One of the daily inspirational emails that I receive sent out an email about the heart, in this writing the author wrote about how it baffled him that children are taught to put their right hand over the left side of their chest when they pledge allegiance and that most adults do the same when they sing their national anthem.

The craziness in this act, he said, was that the heart isn’t located in the left half of our chest, but rather the centre. As I read the writing I assumed he was talking about the energetic heart, the heart chakra which is located right in the centre of the chest.

However, after I finished reading I googled just for kicks and found that despite what I’d been taught growing up, the heart is indeed located in the centre of the chest and not the left! Wha?!?!?!?!

The author pointed out that when we aren’t taught where our heart is actually located we become unconsciously disconnected from our heart and easier to control.

As I connected to my physical heart in the centre of my chest I couldn’t believe the power. Something had always felt hollow and empty when I would try to open my heart on the left side, I would breathe in and wonder why my heart felt so shallow energetically, because it wasn’t where I was directing my attention!

This reading came at the perfect time for me as we finish this month of working with Dioptase and listening to the heart. Now that I am connecting to the heart in the middle of my chest I feel as though there is a wealth of power, a power so big and strong it is a bit overwhelming, for me to tap into and to discover. This is a new level of empowerment for me. Thankfully next month’s crystal focus is all about utilizing the energy in our hearts, channeling and directing it.

I can’t wait to see what is in store for May and am so grateful that one of the final lessons of Dioptase was finding my actual heart and realizing the power that she holds for me.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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May : Lepidolite

Next month is fast approaching and we will be working with lepidolite, which we will see is actually a perfect stone to be learning from after our month with Dioptase.

April : Dioptase

Dioptase is a rare and expensive gem. Upon researching this stone I realized that the piece I have at home is indeed dioptase. It is a white rock with tiny flecks of shimmering, deep emerald, sea green. I am so grateful to work with this stone this month, as my dioptase was gifted to me and I haven’t yet spent much time with her.

Justin Moikeha Asar writes this about dioptase, ” No mineral on Earth can go as deeply into the heart energies physically and create healing.”

How inspiring. The green ray of this crystal has been calling to me. Not normally a fan of the colour green, I am drawn to the shade of dioptase strongly. It feels fresh, alive, new and resonant with the spring season that we have just recently entered.

I am interested to see what this journey deep into my heart will look like this month. Last month we journeyed into the womb and this month into the heart. The heart and the womb are intimately connected for me, the womb is my portal to my personal intuition, my gut knowledge and my creativity. My heart is the portal to universal intuition, my cosmic knowledge and my dreams.

The heart chakra is the changing station, the space that connects the as below so above frequencies in our bodies and our psyches.

My heart doesn’t feel wounded, that is a statement I didn’t think I would ever be able to write. Yet, I know that there are always deeper layers to be revealed. There are kinder ways that my heart could lead my actions, there are softer responses that an open heart could offer the world through me. There is more presence to be given when I am in my heart and out of my head.

Tonight as I walk around at work with dioptase tucked away into my apron I will rub her frequently and ask to be reminded and shown how I can lead from my heart.

How is dioptase connecting you to your heart right now?

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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April : Dioptase

March Moonstone month moved me <<<<< how’s that for a hypnotic sentence.

Moonstone was working with my womb and I was becoming conscious of preparing for conception. If I conceived in March I would be having a Sagittarius, guess what stone I read is associated with Sagittarius? You guessed it, Dioptase!

It seems as though the months have been progressing with synchronistic messages for me, whether I conceived or not, Sagittarius was on my mind as I prepared for the idea of ushering a little archer into the world and this month’s focus on the crystals is associated with Sagittarius.

Today I fell upon Lunar Days, I’ve read about them and I’m sure I’ve seen them quite a bit when I’ve done my Mayan astrology work, however, today I got right into it after I realized that the day I conceived my daughter and the most fertile day for me last month were both the same lunar day. I then found out that that lunar day is the day my husband was born! To top it off my husband’s lunar day is ruled by the Unicorn, before meeting him I had said that I wanted to marry a Virgo Carpenter with a Unicorn spirit….he is all three of those things. Lastly my lunar day of birth is symbolized by the butterfly, like come on!

I take note of these synchronicities because they remind me that my life is so much larger, vaster and more meaningful than my tiny, narrow worries are. In case you’ve been following my writings, I have a worry problem

From Dioptase to lunar days the Divine is reminding me that there is a Divine plan, not just for the planet, and the cosmo’s, but for me, for my life, for my purpose, for my direction.

Dioptase represents Sagittarius to me right now, a sign I had never thought that I would mother as it is one of the signs that challenges me the most. Dioptase is green and works with the heart, both the colour and chakra that don’t  peak my interest all that much, and yet here I am wondering about a Sagittarius baby and reading about the Emerald power of Dioptase and it’s history with Priestesses and Priests of Atlantis and suddenly I can’t wait to get my hands on some Dioptase (mine is on order) and maybe a Sagittarius baby.

Until my Dioptase arrives (and maybe Sag baby?) I shall envision, connect in meditation and hopeful prayer and happily await a new experience, one that is outside of my norm and comfort and expect expansion and joy in it’s place. I also have a green sparkly crystal atop a piece of white stone that I feel calling to me, I will use this in the space of Dioptase (I suspect it might be a piece of Dioptase) until my crystal arrives.

Have you sought out a piece of Dioptase for yourself yet?

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

March : Moonstone

The Liquid Crystal Oracle identifies Moonstone as a stone that aids in Female Ascension, I like that this is how the writer chose to word his sentence, he didn’t write, Feminine Ascension, but rather Female Ascension.

I have been particular about what is termed “feminine” and what is termed “masculine”, a female path of ascension simply means, the path that a woman takes to ascend. I find that there are too many assumptions made about what is Feminine and what is Masculine, I think each individual identifies how femininity and masculinity shows up for themselves. How important this topic is in our patriarchal world today. A culture that still defines for others the sex that they are, a culture that believes assaulters over victims, a culture that pays men more than women and that listens to confident well spoken men with an air of respect and admiration while simultaneously claiming that a woman who speaks in the same manner is bitchy, a ball buster, upset or pushy.

How in this culture do we own our own female path of ascension?

When I began a path that was dedicated to following spiritual principles it was Christian Mysticism that I studied and practiced. I struggled dearly with surrendering to God, to getting on my knees and asking a Father above me for help. One day as I lamented to my mother, she suggested I pray to God as a Mother for a month, this was years before I would be introduced to the Goddess and this concept opened my eyes up to the pain that had been inflicted upon me by men in my life. I will qualify that last statement by owning the poor decisions I made back in the day, I sought out abusive men, the men I have in my life today are beautiful, strong, gentle, loving warriors. I %100 believe that the patriarchy harms men as much as women. At that time in my life however what I found so freeing was the ability to remove all of my preconceived notions of men and masculinity and connect to a female expression of God.

Later on in my life, after turning onto the Goddess path, I connected to God for a while, when I was single and longing for romance, poets like Mirabi inspired me to make God my Beloved and having a strong masculine love of God to connect to was exhilarating.

Beyond how we define our concept of the Creator, (mine is that the Creator is neither male nor female but expresses itself in both female and male expressions on this earth plane), comes the freedom to worship as we choose, to practice or faith as we choose and to follow our intuition and power.

I have found that as I follow my own path of ascension the mass pain body surrounding the burning times and all of the people, predominately women, burnt at the stake for following nature based religions, comes up within my psyche, something deep within my womb remembers a horror that occurred long before I was born into this body.

It takes courage for me to hold ceremony, to offer psychic readings, to receive tarot readings, to share my spirituality in writing, to attend Goddess Gatherings, there is still an ancient fear of being persecuted that rises up within me when I follow my personal path of female ascension. Moonstone has been helping to ease that fear for me this past month, it has inspired me to restart my blog radio show as well!

When I connect to stones, crystals, cards, essences and other women that are connected to female ascension my fear lessens and I know that each step I take on my own path, a path that I define as my spiritual path, is another step in healing the collective female wound and is another step towards our Sovereignty and the end of the patriarchy.

As this month with Moonstone closes out my focus and intention is on strengthening the path of female ascension for myself and being open to being of service to helping others in their female ascension if I can.

What is Moonstone teaching you this month?

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April : Dioptase

For the month of April we will be working with the beautiful Dioptase crystal, can’t wait to see what April has in store for us.

March : Moonstone

My flow with Moonstone this month has been magical and thought provoking.

On one hand my regular cycles of habitual patterns and behaviours are still in a slow progress, yet on the other hand the flow of the Goddess is taking me over. Up until now my walk with Goddess has been one of really concentrating on connecting to Her and communing and seeking Her will, since working with Moonstone She feels stronger than my desire to connect, like She is enveloping me.

That is the magical part, things feel similar to when I first began my path, when spiritual truth’s expression in my life was new, when everything felt fresh and inspiring. I have often felt as the years went on like the fish in the fish bowl that can’t identify the water it is in because it is all that it knows. My life has been a dream come true compared to what it was before I first dedicated my life to the Spiral Path, as the water became comfortable I have become accustomed to what it feels like to walk with Spirit and I’ve been longing for a deepening, a stronger sense of Her presence beside me and with me, even if that sense is more of a God sense than a Goddess one or a mystical Creator sense, I don’t care how it appears, only that I feel It with me as I once did. And I am this month as I hold Moonstone close.

A very cool unfoldment for me has been observing how flowing and surrendering to my feminine essence and my emotional life has been creating outward changes. As anyone who knows me or has followed my writings for a while will attest to the fact that I am not a student of manifestation, I don’t practice it and I don’t focus on it. My path is the one of Grace, however, I adore Abraham Hicks and have found that the overall quality of my life does shift if I focus on the vibration that I am emitting.

As I have been overtaken by the watery Goddess essence of the Divine Mother coming through Moonstone, I have been observing how my relationship with my husband is deepening in intimacy, my joy with my daughter has been heightening (which is saying something because she is a constant source of joy in my life), my energy is more abundant (which is in large part to the raw garlic and prenatal I am taking….but that is an outer expression of my inner shift I am sure). My life is improving as I stop the control and sink into surrender and with Moonstone I am eased into surrender without much effort.

The remainder of this month I am doubling down on surrender and all things Goddess, today I pulled the Inner Goddess Card with Financial Flow, imagine that, surrendering more into my feminine essence and magnetizing more flow of finances to me, how amazing would that be?

For now, I am going to jump into the stream of today, aim to stay present in the moment and to follow the tide of the Goddesses stream, where She goes I go.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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March : Moonstone

“One of the most potent representations of feminine energy in the earth, Moonstone teaches the past of the Goddess through the emotional body. She soothes and heals the emotions by bringing them under the soul’s control.” Justin Moikeha Asar, Liquid Crystal Oracle

This idea of controlling the emotions has been presenting itself to me for the past week, when synchronicity appears in my life I take note.

I was surprised that this concept was coming to me and that it felt gentle, inspiring and, like the author states, soothing.

I grew up with a totalitarian, authoritative, first level masculine presence in my life. As a watery, extremely sensitive Scorpio I emoted very large from the beginning of life, at the first tear shed, the first rage of protestation, the first shriek of horror I was met with a stern and demeaning instruction, “control your emotions!” This was often followed by the menacing, “if you’re gonna cry I will give you something to cry about.”

Scorpio’s are known to be secretive, quiet and mysterious about their deep emotions, this quiet nature surrounding their emotional bodies is due to being wounded in childhood when an unsuspecting person invalidates or shames them over the depth of their sensitive emotions. In my case it was purposeful and often that I was shamed and demeaned for my emotions, I entered into adolescents a closed up and depressed girl wishing I had been born a boy that would grow into a powerful and great man one day.

In my 20’s I began my spiritual path, and in my mid 20’s the Goddess found me, She liberated my emotions and I learnt how to express them as I never had before. I found the power in my womanhood and I balked at any suggestion that any emotion I experienced was wrong or should be changed in any way, until a week ago the suggestion that I control my emotions would have illicit a wounded inner child reaction, one of hurt rage.

Something is shifting, and I attribute it to Moonstone. Since I’ve been carrying her, and gazing into her silvery, shimmering lines I have been feeling soothed, embraced, both held by and a part of the Mother Goddess.

Last month when we focused on Morganite, I continued to type in Moldavite instead and would have to go back and edit it to Morganite. Yesterday while we were visiting with friends the girls wanted to look up Morganite in their mother’s crystal bible. We couldn’t find Morganite, but we did flip to Moldavite, a stone that their mother informed me was her eldest daughter’s favourite crystal. She told me that she had read that Moldavite was to be avoided by children and that only people who had been trained with it were supposed to use it, one of the main reasons being that Moldavite amplifies the emotional field of the wearer.

I began to drift as I pondered this trait, I started to realize the power in being able to control one’s emotions, not to demean them or suppress them, but to actually control their direction and their flow and their expression. I thought about Abraham Hicks and how many suggestions they have to get into the vortex, a vortex that is entered by finding the next good feeling thought or action and it dawned on me, that if one could choose the emotional wave they wanted to surf and create that wave, and then had a stone like Moldavite to amplify the chosen wave, what a potential for creating joy and harmony in one’s life there would be.

That is the direction I am flowing with Moonstone for the next while, shifting my vibration when it goes out of the vortex, finding a way to soothe myself back into a state of joy, contentment, hope, whatever the next emotion on the vibrational rung is, and as I learn to do this I will strive to one day be adept enough with my emotional field to then be able to work with a powerful amplifier like Moldavite…who knows, maybe she will jump out for us to work with one of these months?

Until then, if you will, let’s work with the Divine Mother and focus on allowing the soul to control and steer the watery ocean of our emotions and see just how much joy and love we can experience in this next month.

Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly

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