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I’m happy to read that in years past at the Aquarian Mother Moon I was as tired as I have been of late. This year I know a big contributor to my tiredness is processing “die off” as my gut heals, I’ve been on a big gut healing kick these past few months, and besides the die off phases (I’ve just added a prebiotic drink to my regimen,) I have been feeling fantastic. Upon reflection I would describe my current state for the most part these past few months as feeling soft, at ease and chill, such a difference from the keyed up state I have been wound up in for far too long.
Another aspect to this sleepiness I know, is the great energy portals opening up right now. During the month of July I became aware of how potent the energy in the air was feeling, lower vibrations were shifting easier than ever and remaining in a state of bliss was becoming a real possibility, how much of this corresponded to my gut healing (seriously I’m amazed, for someone that puts so little focus on the body as a vehicle to joy I’m wondering if my Highest Self doesn’t live in my gut!) and how much had to do with planets aligning and mass evolution occurring. I purposefully didn’t research what was happening on a planetary level as I didn’t want to get into my head, I just wanted to be in it.
However, what’s occurring tonight and over the next few weeks, that information found me and I trust it was all in Divine timing. So, while I’m sleepy as my gut is charging up to a whole new level of health, my spirit is also charging up to a whole new level of awakening as I enter these energetic uploads. Here’s what we have on the agenda:
🌕 Tonight: Aquarian Mother Moon/Partial Lunar Eclipse
💥 Tomorrow: Lion’s Gate Portal
🌑 Aug 21: A Leo Crone Moon/Solar Eclpise
👆Now, there’s a lot more intricacies to what’s happening astrologically (ahem, 5 planets going retrograde!) at this time as well, to best understand the energies swirling around us I highly suggest starting with this video from Astrologer Coach Sonja Francis and then following her other writings as she is much more versed in the ins and outs of that astrological map on a microcosmic scope than I am: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmX_Hm2mhXg&feature=youtu.be
Powerful Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius, August 2017
Join Sonja as she shares about several upcoming astrological events: * Powerful Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse in 15 degrees of Aquarius (on Aug. 7th, 2017 at 2:11p…
In the meantime, that trinity of energy potency above is the big whammy of what’s going on, and for some of us, myself included, the physical vessel gets a bit sleepy as our consciousness expands to receive these energy downloads.
Tonight we have the Aquarian Mother Moon, as I’ve mentioned in many previous Mother Moon posts, the Mother Moon, aka the Full Moon, is a time when we are emotionally full and our Lunar energy is at it’s peak. The Mother Moon parallels the Mother phase of our lives, the time of life when we are called to tend to our children, our actual babies and our physical, artistic, animal and career children, it is the phase of life when we are called to be nurturers and we must strike a balance between filling ourselves up so that we can give more of ourselves. Every month there are different aspects of self that the Moon reflects down upon us to balance. This month we are balancing the Aquarian/Leo polarities, the aspect of serving humanity and serving our human.
One of the great ways that this energy is presenting itself to me right now is in looking at my parenting on a very personal scale. When I birthed my first daughter I was instantly rocketed into a new dimension of love, one I had never known existed. From a very primal place I began to give of my all to her, as she grew and our family expanded to welcome in another little Maiden I had a hard time adjusting to sharing that devotion with two children. For the first few weeks, I did what I did with my eldest, Gracious, and breastfed constantly and kept baby Estrella skin to skin, but my magic love bubble wasn’t there, I was in knots. I longed to be giving my all to Gracious and then when Daddy took Estrella and I was with Gracious I was torn with a need to be with my newborn, it was hellish for me those first weeks, I had heard everybody tell me that when a second child comes your love just doubles, and while I loved both of my daughters, I felt completely torn in half. Once my husband was back at work and it was the three of us getting into our groove the love bubble came. Watching Gracious and Estrella form a sisterly bond, and having long hours of just the three of us gave me that sense of fulfillment once again, both of my girls were getting my all, and as an intense Scorpio that’s a lot of all. Now that I have become comfortable in our groove I have some truths coming to the surface to be examined.
The first is that I have been having a lot of readings, articles and discussions coming my way about being in one’s passion and making room for one’s calling to be actualized in their life experience. I was getting quite comfortable in the knowledge that I got to slow down on pursuing outside interests and focus on my family as I had only had a second baby almost five months ago now, and while that is true, for whatever reason I am ready to be giving more to my calling outside of motherhood without letting up on my mothering. There’s been some resistance to that, I have had a tendency to get quite ambitious and I don’t like the feeling of pushing against the flow with an intended goal in mind. So, I have been breathing into that resistance, coming back to the moment and getting honest with myself. When pockets of time open up how am I spending them? I don’t always need a good book or show to recharge my battery when the girls go out with my husband, a lot of days I am good to write, plan out a gathering or offer up a reading or two.
Beyond my resistance that truth has highlighted what the Aquarian aspect of this Mother Moon is revealing to me, and that is that I am not to give only to my children in a mothering way I am to continue being a mother to the world at large. From the moment I was a tiny Maiden I have been drawn to those younger than me, those struggling, in need or seeking, if there was a way that I could nurture or serve I was there. When I became pregnant with Gracious learning to give less and fill myself was a very hard and sad transition for me, after I had her I regretted when I had to say no, yet I felt in my bones how very much my family needed me to put them first. That was the Leo half of the lesson that I had to learn, and I have learnt it, now for the Aquarian. While my energy goes first to my family, what is left over goes to my community and to humanity, if I need to refuel, yes of course I stop and tend to that need, but I must be honest with myself and when I am capable of giving, of adding to the upliftment of our species, in whatever way I am called I must answer that call. That’s what the Aquarian Mother Moon is reminding me of tonight.
My personal moon is in Taurus and I can get into comfort ruts, ruts where I just want cozy blankets, yummy food and fantastic stories to escape into, and there is time for that when I need to refuel, but as my human vessel continues to strengthen and my spirit continues to awaken, the time that I need to refuel is becoming less and less. I must be honest with myself and when I can give from a genuinely full place, give, and I must find the balance between giving my girls my all because I was assigned the role of mother in their lives and not favouring them as my egotistical preference for service, it is easy to serve them because I love them so damn much, but sometimes I will be called to send them out with Daddy and give elsewhere.
I am also being reminded that I will not be able to accomplish any of this : discerning when to focus solely on family, when to fill myself and when to branch out in an active service role to humanity, without being present to the will of my Creator, I must go within and follow Her inner guidance as to how I am to serve and how I am to show up on a moment to moment basis. For today that looked like skipping a family outing with my beloved Aquarian mother-in-law who is visiting and told me in a very Aquarian altruistic manner to take advantage of her being down to get done what I need to, husband and Gracious to stay home to nap with Estrella and then to sneak out of that nap once I was rested to write this. In two weeks it looks like gathering the women of our community for the Crone Moon Solar Eclipse.
Estrella has just awoken so I will begin to sum up after touching on the energies that are on their way. The Lion’s Gate Portal that I would love to write on tomorrow but most likely won’t be able to, is a powerful 888 gateway that ushers in the potency of the number 8 which represents infinity. Higher Beings that serve this realm enter via that gateway and teach those of us that are open to receive their teachings, this gateway is guided by the Leo Lion energy and strengthens our solar plexus and inner will. This is a fiery gateway that I will be entering with tonight’s intentions fresh on my soul. In two weeks this energy will be followed by a Leo Crone Moon, the moon of releasing which is paired with a Solar Eclipse, a moment in time to face the ego’s shadow, Leo rules the ego and this will be a powerfully dark and strong moment in time to get very clear about an aspect of ego self that has held us back.
The lunar eclipse that is accompanying tonight’s moon is a time to pause when the Lunar light is her strongest and to look into the shadow realm of our emotional world. Aquarius’ shadow is being too detached from their emotions, tonight we will receive an opportunity to look at an aspect of our emotional world that we have used denial or aloofness or detachment in it’s lower vibration, to avoid. To be honest I don’t know what it is that I will find, right now it feels as though it will be linked to favouritism, to needing to become willing to commit to loving my daughters and husband as deeply as I do while committing to loving all of humanity that deeply and not reserving my heart for a few but giving it to the all.
That’s the bridge that I am walking right now, the middle road of love for self (Leo), love for humanity (Aquarius) and love for those that are in my personal circle, tribe (Leo), and love for the beings beyond this 3D Matrix (Aquarius) as I find the middle ground here I am sure that I will find my brightest space to shine my personal light of joy into the world and beyond, into the grand ethers.
How will you work with tonight’s Mother Moon and the lunar eclipse, how will the Aquarian aspects of tonight’s moon help you to tear down the social constructs that have helped you to define yourself into a box? I have been mired in identifying as a mother to Gracious and Estrella and lost focus of my role as a mother to the world, I’m ready to tear that construct down with the light of the Full Moon and I’m ready to peer behind the veil of the shadow cast upon my naked heart to see what it is that I am ready to face and step into, perhaps I will meet your brave souls behind the veil tonight in meditation and journeying, until then…..
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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The moon is full tonight, in Feminine Mysticism the full moon is known as the Mother Moon. This knowledge, that the full moon is the Mother, has been with me for some time now. I understand that the emotional energy is at it’s highest during this phase of the moon, that the astrological sign it falls under influences how we feel her energy, and that the Mother phase is full, in need of balance and very busy.
This knowledge seems to have dropped from my head and down into my heart in the last 24 hours. As my husband and I balanced getting our 3.5 year old to a fair, dressed to be a flower girl, to the wedding, pick up clothing orders, plan for meals, get work done, maintain the house and follow sleep cues for our four month old daughter, that corny saying that I’ve read in the mother boards began to echo in my head “the days are long but the years are short,” in the midst of the chaos, it dawned on me that life will not always be like this. One day our children will be grown up and life will not be this demanding and full, we might choose to keep it full or make unconscious choices that make it feel demanding, but it won’t be guaranteed, non stop full on like it is now. That’s where my new appreciation for the Mother Moon energies came from.
I got it, that fullness, that looniness, that need for balance when things are at their peak that the Mother phase of the Moon holds is what I am living right now. As I connected the energies of the Mother Moon and the Mother phase of life together I began to feel the Mother Moon looming in the skies as the moon turned full over the past 24 hours.
The Mother Moon is a Capricorn one this month, she is balancing out the energies of career/calling with home and family, just today I was explaining to my husband that right now and for the next while I am predominantly ‘mom’ and most of my other identities feel lost. Thankfully I know, having already raised a daughter for 3.5 years, that this will ease up as our baby continues to grow. With Gracious, my eldest, by 20 months I was feeling like myself, like a woman who had the role of Mother to play as one of many roles in life, rather than my life having been usurped by becoming a mom and having that role as my sole identity, as I once feared it would be when I first became a mother.
The moon rules our emotions, Capricorn is studious and down to earth, she is also the Matriarch of the zodiac, with Capricorn ruling this Mother Moon, I felt as if she was coming in to offer me perspective. As my eldest daughter ran around the house as if she were in a jungle and I contemplated ways to get her energy out while also napping the baby and wondered how I would ever get a moment to myself again a calm began to descend upon me.
“The days are long but the years are short,” it was as if the Capricorn moon was reminding me not to get caught up in the overwhelm of how much time and energy I was outputting to my tiny little fairies and reminding me that this is a phase, this is the main job for me right now but it is not the only job I have, nor is it the only one I will ever have, it is however the one that needs the most attention and energy right now. A very inspiring Capricorn woman for me, Patti Smith, writes about how when she had children she stopped performing all together, she stayed home to raise her family. Despite criticism from the feminist community at the time, she wanted to make that decision, she did get up at 5am every morning to write, but the rest of her hours were spent taking care of her family as if that were her career. It was only after the tragic death of her partner that she returned to performing and that was to make money to keep the family going.
That portrait of Patti Smith is the personification of the Capricorn/Cancer balance to me, (we are balancing opposite signs Cap and Cancer as Cap is ruling the moon right now and Cancer the sun). It is also the epitome of the strength of self that she had at that time, to be fully immersed in her family life, to be enjoying her creativity for her own artistic self and to be out of the spotlight, to not fear fading into oblivion during her mothering years, what a balance she must have had between her home and her calling, to have faith that she could go back to her calling as a performer when her children were older and to have faith that she could fully fall into her calling as mother as a career and be okay with that.
That is my focus this month, the amount of minutes that I have to put into my personal calling outside of motherhood is much less than it will ever be, and that is okay, there’s a purpose to me giving as much as I’m giving right now. I am the primary vessel for Source to care for these young bodies and old souls right now as they reintegrate back onto Earth, the writing, the circles, the readings, they will all be there whenever I am ready to pick them up, but these years, these years will never come again, this is my highest work right now.
I love feeling the introverted home maker Cancer Mother archetype when she is ruling the Sun, her energy is so strong and inspiring for me as I tend my home, and I love when the stern Capricorn comes into the light of the full moon and my desires to extend out of the home and into the community, another great role of the Capricorn Goddess, is lit up within my heart, the balance that comes feels reassuring and comforting.
As I walk out of the light of this moon, I am taking perspective with me, right sized-ness and a reminder that some of the roles that we play in life have specific timings and requirements to them and that that is okay. Whether I am in the busy Mother phase of my life or not, one thing that remains steady and unchanging is the top priority in my life, which is a conscious and unwavering relationship with the Source within me, as long as that is at the centre of my soul, all else is balanced around that white, hot beam of alignment with Source, and when I am aligned I can be at peace, being right where I am in the moment, regardless of how chaotic and busy it may be.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
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