Posted by priestessofgrace
Last month my Crone phase came during the Mother Moon (full moon). I am in my Crone when I am having my moon time and shedding, this month my Crone time came a few days after the Mother Moon and as I have been flowing these past few days I have been awaiting the revelation of what it is that my lesson has been over the past cycle.
Every time I enter my Crone and begin to shed I feel the wisdom of the Crone Goddess, my ancestors and my inner Crone speak to me, She shows me patterns or themes from the month’s cycle and I become inspired, I find a new commitment and a renewal as the end of my Crone time comes and I enter my Maiden phase of the month. Each month there are four major phases of the moon Maiden, Mother, Enchantress, Crone and each month my body goes through these four phases as well. Right now I am not synced up with the moon so my body is cycling at a different pace then the moon. I am entering the Maiden in the next day or so, this is the time when I am a clean slate, I am cleared and ready to plant seeds and to watch them begin to sprout, seeds that will be in fruition when I am in my Mother phase and fertile.
This past week I have committed to refraining from exercise as I cycle as well as from extending myself in creative activity, as challenging as it can be for me to sit and release and to receive wisdom or inspiration without extending myself, I endeavour to commit to this in an effort to honour my body and the phase that it is in. I also feel as though this practice connects me to my ancestors as I become still and bleed I can hear the echo’s of sisters and aunties gathered in red tents sharing stories and listening to the Crones teach their wisdom during the new phase of the moon.
This month it’s been a deep call to recommit to the path of Grace. This is the path that I have been called to and have tried to walk as diligently as I can for the past 11.5 years. I don’t write about Grace often, I find that the principles are so simple and the message so deep that I am often at a loss of where to begin. I also feel that I am not in the stage of life where using many personal life experiences is called for yet. This Grace seed is still planted deeply within the depths of my soul and while I watch amazed and inspired as it shapes the road that I walk, I am still too immature in my path to be able to write from a grounded place about myself personally in relation to Grace and her effect on my life yet.
What I can write about is how Grace has called to me, what it is that Grace is and most importantly what it tells me about my Creator.
When I was 18, a few years before I formally committed myself to walking a conscious path, I was on vacation with my parents and my Mother was telling me about finding a theme to commit one’s life to, she was going to commit her life to serenity, I thought about it and chose Grace. To be honest a large part of that choice had to do with Seinfeld, as ridiculous as that seems to me today. I am an avid Seinfeld fan and there is an episode where the topic of Grace is mentioned and how rare it is to find a person who embodies Grace, well I decided I wanted to be that person. At that time I wasn’t thinking about the spiritual qualities of Grace, I was thinking about how I would look and act and the affect I would have on others if I was a graceful person.
A few years later when I committed myself to a conscious path I was instantly attracted to an author named Joel Goldsmith, he is a Christian Mystic who teaches about living life from Grace. This is when I first began to seriously contemplate following Grace as a path. I spent the entire first year of my life on this path in meditation about what Grace actually meant, I read what Goldsmith was teaching, I read the sermons on Grace yet none of it was landing, none of it made any sense to me, it was an inner knowing that I needed. One day after my year of meditation it just clicked, it became very apparent what Grace was and what a path of Grace is, nothing that I can write about my revelation hasn’t already been written by Joel Goldsmith and in the gospels of the bible, however after a year of meditating on the essence of Grace the words now made sense to me.
What a life of Grace is is one where I am called to take no thought for my life. I am called to go within in prayer and meditation for nothing besides an experience of the Creator. I do not bring problems of this realm within, I go within only for an experience of Spirit and as I connect and commune with this Spirit, Grace appears in the outer realm as the fulfillment of whatever it is that I need, without my needing to tell or ask Divinity for it. One of the main reasons for this is that from a mystical perspective this realm is an illusion, nothing that is tangible is real. From a scientific perspective we know that the objects we see are actually atoms that are vibrating at extreme rates and give us the experience of a tangible chair or tree, it’s all energy. Grace demands that we acknowledge that the only thing that is true is the Creator. As the Course in Miracles puts it “Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.” Those three sentences pretty much sum up everything that I need to know. Except that I live in a very distracting third-dimensional reality and there is much that is unreal that seems real. Grace tells me that the chair that I am sitting on is an illusion, that the beautiful sunset I behold is an illusion and that the death and destruction of this world is an illusion. That concept frustrates a lot of people, it seems to discount the pain and suffering that people encounter in this world. However for the advanced ones, the ones that I follow, the awareness in their consciousness of this illusion is what shatters the illusion. People talk about what a sad state our world is in, in actuality the world has been quite brutal for quite some time, however our tolerance of brutality is lessening, the world isn’t getting worse, we are getting more conscious. And so, to bring it back to simplicity, Grace promises that if I let go and allow Grace to unfold my life for me that I will be guided to exactly what I need when I need it. This sound wonderfully easy, except that there isn’t any room for manifesting wants, it’s a commitment to letting go of the want in order to trust and surrender to the will of Grace. This doesn’t mean that I don’t get what I want, it means that I trust that what I want may be what I need and that if it is then it will appear as long as I follow where I’m led and do the work that is presented to me, and I also trust that if it is not where I am led towards then it is not what was in my highest good, regardless of how much I thought it was. This takes trust as well as a belief in the benevolence and love of the Creator.
This brings me to my last point for today, what Grace tells me about my Creator. There are many people that don’t believe in ‘God’ because of the pain and suffering in the world. From a very earthly place they claim that any being that would allow such suffering either isn’t real or isn’t for them. What Grace tells me is that whenever I am not in alignment with and working the principles of Grace I am living in chaos or karma. Chaos means that I might have a pleasurable experience and that I might have a painful one and there is no rhyme or reason to it. Divinity does not exist in this space of chaos and because chaos is fleeting and ever changing, while very real in how it feels in the moment, it is a part of the illusion. Karma means that I may have chosen pain and suffering before I incarnated to even out the score from mistakes in a past lifetime or that I might have chosen suffering as a means to gain a greater awareness of compassion and kindness, however Grace nullifies karma, it takes all of the debts and erases them. When I live in Grace I don’t live in karma anymore. Karma is a path towards awakening, but it is still in the realm of illusion. There are some that have observed, and rightly so, that there is no reason to why certain people suffer and others don’t, they conclude that it doesn’t make a difference to Divinity and in a way this is correct. It can’t matter, because to Divinity it doesn’t exist, all that exists is perfect Love and Union, it is we who cut ourselves off from that Love and Union. And while we may be born into a country that has gathered a karmic debt or a family of a certain belief system that is engrained into us, the second we stop, the second we come under Grace all other laws are nullified and we are led to harmony and peace and love. We are extensions of the Creator, it is in the nature of the Creator to bless and to love and to care for, Grace tells me that the Creator loves me and cares, not in a human way where S/He is looking down sad for the suffering of this world, but from a supernatural space within that instantly blesses and brings joy to me when I open to receive It and to follow It. In the end there is either consciously connected or unconsciously asleep. I am nowhere near where I would like to be, but I have tools and directions and the simpler I make how I live and the more diligently I follow that direction the less of a hold this world has on me and the greater an inner sense of love and joy I have. I decided when I began my path that any areas of blockages, any area’s of suffering was due to me, my lack of awareness of Grace in that area of my life. I decided that I believed that if I could open up that part of my consciousness to the Light of the World I would instantly be blessed, and so rather than pray “please make this stop, or please guide me to this,” I would pray “please help me to give this to You, I know that I think that I am but if I truly was You would have taken it from me in an instant, so please help me to truly surrender it to You.”
Every day is a choice to fall under Grace, I don’t do it perfectly, far from it. It is in my human nature to want to control, I fret and fear and worry and when it gets to be too much I breathe and go back to the path that I have dedicated my life to, Grace. This path has never, ever let me down. I trust it impeccably and only hope for the maturity to remain on it when life feels happy and blissful as it inevitably does when I follow Grace, rather than hoping off in a vain attempt to control or improve upon my blessings as I often do.
I will leave you with this scripture, it outlines this magically loving path that I cling to with all my might and how to live it.
Matthew 6:25-34King James Version (KJV)
25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
Grace Be With You,
Priestess of Grace,
Candise Soaring Butterfly
Posted on April 11, 2015, in Crone Moon Messages and tagged chaos, christian mysticism, crone, grace, jesus, joel goldsmith, karma, letting go, maiden, moon time, mother moon, red tent, seinfeld, surrender. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.